You're My Sunshine, I'm Your warrior

Doubts

Saint Pov:

I wake up in the morning feeling empty. I've cried the whole night in P'Zee's arms. I turn around seeking for his warm but he's not there. I look around half asleep, he can't be gone right?... Judging from the coldness of the bedsheets he must have left the bed a while ago. I take my phone and check the hour: 1pm, yes he's probably at the gym. I don't want to wake up to this empty house....empty like my feelings today..but I can't go back to sleep, my brain is too awake and aware of the loneliness to let me fall asleep again. 

I slowly get up from bed, take some clothes and head to take a shower. After the shower, I do the bed and start cleaning the room until I found my boyfriends T-shirt. I take it in hand and smell it...smells just like him, I look at the clock hanging in the room...he won't be home before another hour at least so I go back to the bed and lie down with his t-shirt. Hugging it feels like hugging him.

 I'm still feeling like shit, I know my worth, I did my best and P'Zee is right but I can't help but feel bad..why me? they know they make me feel that way and they enjoy it probably. After a while my phone rings it's a message from Perth cheering me on and telling me he feels horrible for what they do to me and asks me if I want some company. I laugh...bitterly I feel worse Perth...I feel worse...but thank you for trying to be there. I just send him my thanks, it's not his fault and there is nothing he could do anyway, and I also tell him I want to spend time with P'Zee. 

I throw the phone on the bed after that and head downstairs. I prepare myself some breakfast and sit down un front of the TV. Am I watching it ? No, as usual I'm daydreaming. LBC was my first movie, my first big role, the 1st of many more. The one I'll forever remember and cherish. I thought we would do so many seasons, be so close to each others....P'Zee's right....I'm too naive...im sitting here while they have work...I'm doing youtube lives alone while they're together...At least I have that elephant event at the end of the week to look forward to...the first couple event we will have. I'm so happy that the company contacted P'Keng first, at least they can't cancell it right? that's the only hope of some work I have. 

While I'm lost in my thoughts I hear a phone ring. I look around and find P'Zee's phone and take the call.

"Hello?"
"Saint?I've been calling you for hours! Why don't you pick up?"
"I've sorry Phi my phone is not with me. Something happened"
"No P'Zee will let you know now. We just met. Please be careful of your phone."

After that P'Chen ends the call. As I was going to call him back I hear the door open and Zee walks in.

"Hi babe" he says as he takes his shoes away and comes to kiss me. He doesn't look good but I say nothing as he smiles at me and heads to take a shower. 

As he comes back, I'm eating my breakfast on the sofa and waiting for him to speak.

He sits very close....weird. He looks at me and I know he's hesitating to speak, and then he takes my breakfast away and puts it on the table...wtf? He then grabs my two hands. "Babe we need to talk"... the worst scenario goes around in my head...Maybe he wants to break up? or...

"What? It's my mom? Something happened to mom? Phi you're scary, please" I can't help but panic he's rarely this serious.

"No. Calm down." He pulls me so close that our noses are almost touching. "You remember the event with the elephant you have?"

I nod indicating him to continue "you don't have it anymore..."

I froze...what does he mean? "We don't have that anymore? Did the company cancel the event?"

"YOU don't have it anymore. They decided to make it a group event  and they don't want a cp event anymore" he says slowly observing my reaction. "Your contract is concealed..." I can see how scared he is but this is such a shock to me