You're My Sunshine, I'm Your warrior

Exhausted of their Games

The next few weeks were a rollercoaster, Saint had to learn how to blend in a group of already close friends which wasn't his forte. 

They had a few events with fans, where of course, he had to act as if nothing had happened for the past months. A few pictures here and there, a few smiles and mostly chatting with fans. When suddenly a Fan asked him to call Perth so that she could take a picture of both of them. He did, but suddenly Gin appeared tearing Perth away from him. 

It wasn't that Saint didn't know why, he remembers that Instagram story of Big pretty well if you ask him. 

"Even if you put it in a basket and wash it over and over, it won't be clean. I didn't think I 'd see it in the real world. It's funny isn't it?"

Those words still ringing in his ears, he could remember them as if they were imprinted in his skin. When an innocent person is treated the worst possible way when he is defamed, his family name is dragged and is insulted, it leaves a mark...a mark deeply imprinted in his skin, in his bones, and in his memory. That's the case for Saint, he forgave but didn't forget, not when they dragged his name and family that way. Even if Big apologized, he didn't do it to him directly, instead, he focused on the Fanclub and fans trying his best to not mention Saint too much.

Anyway, past is past right? he should move on, but he can't. He will be stuck here until he finishes his work, he will keep sailing the unwanted ship until his contract ends. But he swore to himself, to Zee, to his mom, and to his late father....never again will they hear Pinson/sonpin nor PerthSaint out of his name anymore. After this, he will close that door. Damn be the fans who can't move with him, he is ready to start from scratch. That's part of the job, losing fans or gaining new ones is a part of the game...Saint just wants to do what he likes and to give happiness to others...but not while killing his own. 

The days past by pretty fast despite that lingering pain every time people mentioned Perth or asked him about the other boy...What is Perth doing? where is Perth? why aren't you with Perth? have you talked with Perth? can Perth drop you off at uni? are you excited to study with Perth?Perth Perth Perth Perth........He wanted to scream stop but he kept his smile and answered all the questions. The truth was that he and Perth rarely talked, and when they did it was simple questions but he had to keep the fantasy going even if the other side was pushing MarkPerth to the spotlight. 

Soon enough Saint hold is own first solo Fanmeet, he was very excited. He kept bouncing on his feet, looking through the curtains and running left and right. Will many people come? will anyone come? will at least one of the boys show up? he didn't know but he was happy as it is. 

Zee watched him run around, jump left and right and overall be excited.  When the boy passed near him, he used that opportunity to grab him by the arm.

"Saint...Saint love, please calm down. I'm afraid you'll break a leg even before you go up there" he said smiling

"Phi! You can't imagine how excited I am! They come to see me, not lbc, not Pete, not Perth but Saint! I'm so happy naaa" Saint was partially screaming

"Okay okay calm down Saint, that's not surprising, who in their right mind wouldn't love you? hm?" 

"Phi don't be cheesy or I'll lock you in one of the rooms! " Saint said jokingly 

"Sorry to interrupt you both, Zee go back in the lounge and Saint get ready to go out there it will start soon!" Chen interrupted the two before they could bicker more a knowing smile plastered on his face as he left.

"I have to go P'" Saint said, smiling down while looking at their intertwined hands

"Hmm good luck Nong" Zee said as he was swinging their hands