The Other Side (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 7

It was weird.

No matter where I went, No matter who I've met, No matter who I've fucked, I've never willingly exposed myself to anyone. I've never trusted anybody to do so.

Even in the most vulnerable situations, I've always kept my mouth shut about me and my pod. In less than two months, I've managed to abandon every moral I gave myself and be a completely open book, for him.

For my mate.

Now I'm sure you're wondering, "Riley what happened? How did Elijah take the news?" Well, not good.

Almost immediately, his face dropped into an expression of anger mixed with sadness and he left. I obviously couldn't go after him so I was stuck on the ground until Nicky came back with some food for me.

He wouldn't answer my calls and he didn't show up for school the next day. Or the next week, or the next month. Each day that passed, my heart broke more and more. I was stuck between cursing him and blaming myself.

Is me being a Merperson that horrible?

Could this have been avoided?

No, it had to come out, I'd rather sooner than later. Maybe if I would have told him the first day we met, it would all be okay. Maybe he just doesn't want me. Maybe my tail is gross looking. Maybe I smell like salt too much.

My mind is literally cracking from trying to find a reason to explain his sudden departure. It's getting harder to get up every morning and be productive. I don't want to eat, I don't want to sleep, I don't even want to wake up. I just want him back.

I miss him so much; I miss his stupid jokes and his perfect smile. I miss his dumb moments like when he trips over something that's obviously in the way. I miss our midnight talks about how Trump is horrible. I miss our pillow fights that would end in a laughing heap.

Why did he leave me?

I've been asking myself that question for the last six weeks.

Why?

"RiyRiy? You hungry?" Nicky knocks twice before entering my room with Aiden looming over him. Oh yeah, Nicky gets to have his mate but I can't have mine? Fuck you, goddess.

I continued to stare at my wall, a silent decline. Nicky responded how he usually does, sighing and hugging me from behind. I didn't shove him off because in all honesty? I needed a damn hug.

"You have to go back to school Riy, they've been calling back to back" He says, resting his chin in my hair. Again, I didn't react to what he said. What was the point? School wouldn't bring my mate back.

"Aiden could try to track him again, Would that help?" He offered for the billionth time.

"It hasn't helped so far so what do you think?" I said somberly.

Here they fucking come.

Hot, salty tears spilled past my eyes without permission. At least I made it to five minutes, that's a new record. I could feel my emotional barriers being torn down as the tears soaked my shirt.

Nicky tightened his grip around my body as I shook with sobs. This is what life has been like since he left. Sad and dull. If I'm not crying then I'm just staring off, trying to find an ounce of happiness in my body.

"What did I do Nicky? W-why won't he come back! I'm sorry okay if I could change, I would" I blubbered out in his arms.

Thank god for Nicky, I don't think I would be able to deal with this on my own. He stayed with me until I drifted off to sleep after crying for the eighth time today. When I woke up, he was on the side of me sound asleep with the covers covering his face.