Finding Myself Again

Part 1

"It is utterly odds on to no longer be affected by your past that, might be ugly and shameful. But, it doesn’t mean memories will disappear or you're never feeling upsetting emotions again. It means that you made a choice to support your own happiness, to free yourself from the trap of challenging thoughts and from your own demon." I told to my little sister as we talked heart to heart. I was combing her light brown hair with golden highlights while she stared her own reflection, admiring her flawless ivory skin.

"Wow! Is that you? What did you do to my sister? Bad spirit, go away! Please spare her and just take me! And you think I'm going with you without you having bust lips from my power punch? Uh.. huh, no way! Fight me!" She angrily squealed as she threw me her infamous death glare and she prepared herself to blow an attack.

"Seriously? I thought you were asking me some advice since you're self proclaimed heart broken.." I remarked with a hint of sarcasm hardly hidden in my voice.

"Ugh, fine! Adeline... it's just that I hate him to the deepest core of my heart! And I don't think I can forget everything and act normal and be friendly and nice when he's there!" She screamed, raising her voice to the highest note then stood in front of me with her hands gesturing dramatically.

The door threw wide open and my mother's head popped. She then entered casually and her eyes were searching for an answer with our inevitable loud scene. We looked at each other. I was annoyed with my sister's eyes trying to convey me a message that I was to blame. I bit my tongue to stop myself to cuss.

"I heard shouting from downstairs. It's quarter to 12. I don't think cupcakes want to look tired and haggard for tomorrow." commented my mother, her tone was unsurprisingly soft.

Yeah, I know, I've got the luckiest mother to have daughters like us. Lol

"I have learnt refresher tricks from Maisie's blog!" Azalea's shriek bounced around the room, the moment my mother closed the wooden door.

"I hope it's nothing to do with lots of concealer." I said, rolling my eyes.

When you were running late in the morning, 20 minutes seemed to go by in a snap. But I can find no reason why I can’t walk out the door looking and feeling gorgeous.. only if I'll move quick and be the superhero flash instantly.

I was surprised at how great I looked and felt with limited time to prepare. I chose an outfit that was easy to throw on, while still being stylish and flattering. I wore a hot little off-the-shoulder delicate and lacy black dress that hugged my body perfectly and I paired it with crisscross strap block heel sandals. I might looked overdressed but I had no time to search for another dress.

Dresses are only one piece which means I didn't have to worry about matching tops and bottoms. I also didn't have enough time to wash, curl or straighten my long hair. Unfortunately, I didn't get the best bed hair on Earth. So I simply put my hair into a high ponytail then wrapped it around itself. I left some loose strands in the back and on the sides to avoid looking too severe.

I highly believe that smile is the most beautiful face decoration that you can put on your face. It brightens your face and makes you more approachable. And it is also contagious. You might lighten people's mood unconsciously and save their whole day. And of course, self confidence..

I walked in, smiled and made eye contact with the professor, got settled in as quickly and as non-disruptively as possible, and jumped right into the discussion. Yeah right, a way to make the best impression.

I glanced over my shoulder when I heard someone faked a cough just to get my attention. I arched my left eyebrow skyward when the boy with a style of wearing his golden brownish blond hair high over the forehead usually in some type of rolled affect, gave me a lopsided smile.

The girl beside me, her voluminous champagne curls cascaded over her tan shoulders, wafting a delicate aroma of honeysuckle into the sitting room. She leaned in and whispered. "Excuse me, you're late and now you're flirting at godly hour."

I stared at her like a dear caught in headlights. I was so astonished of how blunt her statement was. I wanted to kick myself for letting her to put a mean smug on her beautiful face.

"Ugh. I hate her." I whispered to myself then rolled my eyes discreetly and came to an idea to shrugged it off. I would never get her on my nerves and gave her satisfaction that she had just pissed me off.

Blah. Blah. Blah I wished the bell to ring. Why every single thing seemed to move slower than normal? Was it all just in my head?

"Are you listening to me.. miss?" questioned the girl with hipster hat on my left side.

"Uh.. yes? yes! Sure, I am.." I said with uncertain smile.

"Pfft." The girl with voluminous  champagne curls on my right side, stifled her irk laugh.

"I'm Adeline Everleigh." I presented myself to the girl who was wearing a black skinny jean, baggy navy blue t-shirt that went down to her knees and cool brown hipster hat that complemented her face shape. Me? I'm trying to be friendly and such. I hoped I didn't look way too awkward.

"If I were you I don't want to be in Sienna's bad side.. I'm Kaitlyn, by the way." She uttered and gave me a Duchene smile that was genuine and natural.

"As I was saying earlier....

She was cut off by the loud ring. Finally! So what was her name again? Sienna? Okay, not a foul name to match her foul personality.

I wasn't looking for enemies. I was looking for fun and lil' bit excitement. If she ever goes to my way, then I had no choice but to deal with her. But first thing first, I had to go to cafeteria. I had to grab something to fill my hungry stomach begging for food.

How was Azalea's first day of school? And especially, how was her first encounter with his oh so called summer ex? Hmm.. I couldn't wait to hear her whining and gossips later.. But of course, I was being sarcastic. Though I loved my ears for not losing its hearing from my little sister's thunderous voice always.

"Eating alone, huh?" A deep and strong in a pleasant way voice cut me out from my thoughts.

"Not alone if you'll have the pleasure to sit next to me" I sweetly answered and gave her a sexy wink that I regretted instantly after doing when I saw Sienna's eyes were fuming mad calling havoc, enraged scarlet red's climbing up to her heart defined face.

Oh, oh.