alyssa's pov
it was 12:40 am, ethan and i were in his truck driving home from the beach. music was jamming and windows were rolled down. i leaned my head on ethan's shoulder breathing in the summer air
after a couple of minutes we pulled up in ethan's drive way. his parents were out of town for the weekend and grayson was out doing who knows what. i got out the car rubbing my arms when a cold breeze passed by. i jumped a little when ethan locked the car door causing it to beep.
"scardy cat." ethan says laughing and scrunching his nose. i smile and roll my eyes walking towards him. he wraps his arm around me while we walk to the front door. i walked in and slipped my burke's off leaving me in a tank top and shorts. ethan went to the kitchen to grab a few snacks while i turned some of the lights on.
"what do you want to do? the nights still young ya know." ethan says while looking in the fridge. i shrugged while getting on the counter sitting next to ethan. i knew exactly what i wanted to do though. i want to have sex with ethan.
you see i'm a virgin. ethan and i have been dating for 8 months now and the most we've ever done was give each other hickeys and make out sessions. i'm just so scared of the thought of sex.
"alyssa?" ethan saying pulling me out of my thoughts, "hm?" i say looking up trying my best to not show what i was just thinking about. i press my lips together looking away, he places his finger under my chin.
"baby what's up?" he says trying to get me to focus on his eyes. "oh it's nothing. i just- i-" i cant manage to get the words out. ethan looks at me waiting for me to spit the words out.
i sigh a little then finally say it
"do you ever think about us having sex?" i say placing my hands on my lap. ethan breathes in then looks out the window. "well yeah i do."
i smile not expecting that response, "ethan?" he looks at me "do you think tonight's the night?" i said placing my hair behind my ear.
ethan gets off the counter and gets in between my legs. "baby we don't have to have sex you know that right?" he said placing his fist on each side of me.
"yeah i know we don't have to."
"if you're not ready then we don't have to, i don't want to force you to do something you don't want to do."
"but ethan that's the thing, i think i am ready." i say desperately yearning for ethan's touch. "that's the thing you THINK you're ready. i don't want to rush this alyssa." ethan says looking up then looking back at me.
"it won't be rushed but i really want to do this with you ethan." i run my fingers through his hair, he closes his eyes. he's thinking. ethan leans forward and kisses me on my cheek, then on my lips. our small pecks eventually turns into a make out, ethan places his hands on both sides of my hips grabbing at them.
"wow" ethan says breaking our kiss for a second. he's getting really excited. "ethan." i say not being able to hold it back anymore,
"make love to me."
ethan wraps his arms around me lifting me up off the counter. knowing what's about to happen so many thoughts go through my head and so many emotions do too. i want to jump for joy, but i also want to cry. i want to scream, but i also want to run away.
we walk up the stairs and ethan opens his bedroom door. walking in and switching the lamp on dimming the room. he lays me down on the bed gently making sure this is perfect for me.
i'm laying on the middle of the bed, flushed and nervous. ethan lifts off his shirt revealing his amazing body. my breathing is getting heavier and heavier by the minute and i think ethan is noticing.
