i hate him
i hate him so much
but i still love him
i yell as i drive down the road and onto a dirt road. I turn on some music and park my car on the side of the road. My phone starts buzzing but i turn it off and throw in the back seats. I hum along to the music until the tears stream down my face.
"Why?" i sob
I get out of the car and grab my phone. I slip my phone and keys into my pocket then walk out to the empty field. I lay down on my back and take a deep breath.
I don't wanna lose him
the only thing that runs through my mind
i love him
but i hate him
he hurt me again
I grab my phone and turn it on. i see missed calls and texts from the guys and viv.
zion: baby please come home
zion: nothing happened between us baby i would never hurt you, she tried to do stuff i was pushing her off but you walked in.
zion: amira please baby come home i love you so much
nick: amira are you ok?
brandon: please tell me your safe
edwin: come home when you see this Zion and Armani need you mira
aus10: stay safe❤️
viv: hey ok a lot is going on and i want you to calm down and think okay?
i re read Zions text over and over until more years came.
me: why was she their in the first place?
zion: omg amira are you okay?
me: answer my question
zion: she was coming over to pick up some merch from me but she said she had to use the bathroom so i showed where it was and she pushed me into your room and tried stuff
Sobs filled the silence until my phone started ringing
"hello," i cry
"baby," zion says
i sob more
"where are you?" he asks
"i need to be alone right now."
"amira i'm sorry about earlier,"
"it's fine. i'm sorry for acting that way i am just stressed,"
"please come home or let me come to you,"
"no i'll be back i don't know when,"
I hang up and walk back to my car. I start driving for what seems like hours then check my location.I look for a hotel and buy a room. As soon as i get in the room i collapse on the bed and fall asleep.
I wake up to my phone buzzing like crazy. I pick it up and check the time, 3:02, and zion's name pops up
"babe please come home," he says
"i'll be home later i just need some time right now," i yawn
I hang up and crawl out of bed. I grab all my stuff and go to my car. I go to a local store and buy some necessities. I drive around town for a bit and stop for lunch,
viv; where are you?
I ignore her and her get back into my car. I start on my way home and eventually get their. As soon as i walk through the door zion runs over to me.
"Amira," he wraps his arms around me, i pat his back lightly and stand back
"Where is Armani?" I ask bluntly
"Napping," he says
I walk into her room and see her jumping in her crib
"Hi baby," I pick her up and she smiles
As I rub her back tears pour down my face
"Are you okay?" Zion asks
I nod and kiss Armani
"I need a break," I put her down
