Two weeks later was mums funeral. We were all gathered at the graveyard wearing black. Everybody loved mum so much, we couldn't hold back the tears because she didn't deserve for any of this to happen to her. As we paid our last respect to her, we threw our flowers onto the casket as we sang:
*This is my story, this is my song
Praising my Savior all the day long
This is my story, this is my song
Praising my Savior all the day long*
At this point I swore never to forgive my brother because I knew he himself had a hand in killing our mother.
Another 2 weeks after mums funeral came by. I knew it was going to be hard to move on and take care of myself as I don't want my brother taking care of me. I knew I had to go back to school and make my mum proud.
JAMIL: Your up nice and early
(I screwed Jamil. And he checked his phone for the date and time)
Oh right you've got school my bad.
Me: Yeah. Exactly
JAMIL: Come here lemme talk to you.
{I joined him on the couch}
Your my sister and you know I love you.
Me: Ay ay ay! Cut it bro. If you have shit to say, say it. I don't have time for none of your sweet talk nonsense.
JAMIL: Now listen I've got money to be making and if man don't do this then that means I can't take care of the both of us. I've got some business to do so I'll be gone for a week. I promise you, your gonna be ok just trust me. As I said if I don't do this our lives will be at risk.
Me : {Angrily} Seriously? Your not gonna do this to me are you? Get a proper job, get a fucking job. {angrily I stood up} Your here claiming to be the bread winner but your out here making illegal money. And you wonder why our lives would be risk !? Jamil are you even listening to yourself? This is the same reason mum couldn't even live up to -
JAMIL: Don't even bring mum into this. What now? You wanna blame me for her death Yeahh? Is she not my mother too? God knows that I'm trying to make you happy you ungrateful bitch.
Me: They couldn't find you so they came for mum. Now where is she? Clearly you've gotten yourself into a mess that you can't get out of. Fix it!
JAMIL: Lenelle
Me: You leave me to be in this house alone 24/7
JAMIL: Lenelle
Me: And you wanna sit here and claim that you love your sister when half the time your not even here for me. I'm the only family you've got bro. Pattern!
We both heard Tiana shouting my name from outside and at this point he had to stop arguing because we were going to school together.
Me: I've got places to be, stay safe bro.
JAMIL: I'll be back soon.
We both hugged each other, I grabbed my duffel bag and left the house.
