Notes of a Semi Hopeless Romantic Guy

how it always ends.

The reason why I'm like this, why I kept myself guarded is because of nice girls.

I disliked nice girls for a long time.

I've been through this battle for so long that I knew for a fact that nice girls are super nice. Not just to one person, but to everyone else.

How nice that nice girl is to me is just the same as how she is towards other people. I shouldn't have given her niceness another meaning because it only created a misunderstanding.

I also learned that the cycle wouldn't end unless I change the direction of where I'm going. I would be able to stop myself from repeating the events if I would stop being stupid and just ignore them. It will be a win-win.

A wise man once said, "Lies are a form of kindness. Thus, I say kindness itself is also a lie." It's true right? People only lie so they wouldn't hurt a person's feelings. They're just being kind. So if you consider it, put it in vice versa and I won't see much difference. It's all the same. Kindness in general will hurt a person in a way. 

I dislike myself too, much more than how I dislike nice girls because somehow I always find a way to sabotage myself.

I wave myself a red flag then run pass through it. True enough that I acknowledge the flag...

But why didn't I stop then and there?

I truly am hopeless.