A Never Ending Sorrow

The Darkess is Suffocating

Ladies and gentlemen
Can I have your full,
Undivided attention please?
There is something
You really need to know

There is a hell,
Believe me, I've seen it
There is a heaven,
Let's keep it a secret.

Nobody needs to know....
Nobody needs to know....

I am the ocean
I am the sea
There is a world
Inside of me....

Save me...

Skye's POV
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No! I won't stand for this! This isn't happening again! God damn it Skye! Get the fuck up! He fucking loves me! He said it! He finally said it!

I have had it with this. For once in my life please let me be happy! Please!

I could feel tears sliding down my cheeks, but I still couldn't move. I'm awake! Please God, please! I know I haven't put my trust in you. I'm so sorry, but please, please, help me. Let me wake up! Please....

Please.....

I just waited, in the dark. I don't know for how long, but that's all I could do.

Everyday I'm lost in my own head is a day lost with him. What did I do to deserve this? God, why? If I can't return to him, then just let me die... help him to move on, please.... do something.... anything. Just make this end. Give me my dreams back even. I want to see his beautiful face. Let me go... just let me go.

I feel like I'm suffocating in this darkness. Please....

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For days and days at a time, I stayed trapped within my own mind. Weeks went by, months, years, I could feel it. I could feel everything. Jayy was here everyday up until about three weeks ago. He would come and sing to me and cry with me, hold me. Now he only comes in a couple times a week for an hour or so. He stopped singing and crying, and he only held my hand for a few moments. The only reason I knew he'd stop coming so often was because he would come in every day and tell me what day it was and how long I had been here. He'd count the days and say that I'd wake up tomorrow. And last time he told me what day it was, it was a Tuesday and it had been two years, one week, and three days.

He's here today, and it's now Thursday. He says as of today it's been 2 years, one month, and five days. But that's all he says. I can feel him leaving now. This time I got no goodbye, no kiss, no I love you.... he's just gone.

I'm sorry Jayy. You've waited long enough. I forgive you. I just hope that one day, you will forgive me. I love you, so, so very much. Please forgive me.

Thanks a lot "God" I thought to myself with sarcasm ringing throughout my head.

Every single day I have prayed to you! Every fucking day! I screamed through the darkness. I want to wake up! Fuck! Kill me you prick! Just fucking end me! Two fucking years has been long enough hasn't it?! You've had your fun! Now just let me go bastard! Let me go!!

Let me go....

Let me go....

Let me go....

Kill me....

Please....

Please....

I felt the no longer familiar liquid running down my cheeks again for the first time in years. But I knew that didn't matter. I was never going to wake up. I was never going to dream of him again. I'm going to be stuck here for the rest of eternity. And I knew he was mocking me. God was nothing but the devil.

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So I actually cried while writing this chapter. I want you guys to vote what you think should happen. Will she wake up? will she die trapped within her own hell? Inbox me with your vote. I'll tally the votes on the 10th of October. I have plans for both choices, so don't worry if you vote for the worst. I will probably do an alternate ending once I end the book. But that won't be for awhile since it's barely the beginning of this book. Also I am always open to ideas and suggestions.

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