A Never Ending Sorrow

Deadline

So you guys voted and I got some wonderful suggestions. Also I just wanted to say thank you so much for those of you who are still with me on this story and I apologize to those of you who had to reread the story because my updates have been so slow. Trust me I did. But I promised I'd update more often so here you go. I'll shut up. ;)

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Jayy's POV

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I drove two hours home from the hospital and continued my daily routine. I crossed another day off the calendar. "October 14th, 2011" I sighed. How much longer can I really hold on. Each day I grow older, weaker, emptier. I can't do it anymore. I can't see her like that anymore. I can't even remember what her voice sounds like or the color of her eyes. Her mother abandoned me, as well as her own daughter. I don't even have so much as a picture. Damn you Skye! Why did you have to leave me like this!

No, it's not your fault. I should have never left you when you called for me. This is all my fault and now I'm paying for it.... and so are you. I have to set you free. I have to. You don't deserve to be stuck in the darkness because I refuse to let you go. I can't be so goddamn selfish anymore. I love you so fucking much.

I began to cry, tearing the necklace from around my neck. With a shaky hand, I held up the engagement ring just for a moment. I can't handle this anymore. Tomorrow, I'm pulling the plug. You don't deserve to suffer for my mistakes Skye. And I can't keep driving myself insane with the hopes of you finally waking up. I couldn't even imagine what you're going through. You don't talk in your sleep like you did the first time. I don't think you're even dreaming at all.

How am I ever supposed to let you go? Please, I wish you would just wake up. I don't want to say goodbye. I can barely even visit anymore. I always come home disappointed. I can't take it anymore.

"I should be the one in the coma damn it!" I yelled, punching my fist into the wall. "Great, now I have to fix the hole in the wall." I cursed under my breath. Wait why should I care? You'll never see the farm I bought for us anyway. We'll never get married. Never have a family. Never..... I fell to my knees just thinking about the things we never got to do, never got to see, never will see.

"God, please... I'm sorry for all the things I've said. All the things I've done. If you're punishing me, please, take me. Let her go. Please. Just let her go. She doesn't deserve this. God, please. Give me a sign...."

I don't know why, but I waited for a reply. Of course nothing happened. "Fuck this!" I grabbed my keys and headed for the nearest liquor store.

A few hours later...

I finished off my Jäger and stumbled to my room. My eyes were burning from crying all night. The alcohol didn't numb my pain. It only made it worse. I just wanted to die. I've had enough. Tomorrow, if you're not awake, I'm pulling the plug and I'll be joining you soon after. I can't do it Skye. Two years I've held on. It's time to let you go. We'll be together soon enough. I promise.

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Man, did I cry hard while writing this! God I suck lol. So what do you thinks gunna happen my little Mousecateers?

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