𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐃 • 𝐉𝐄𝐍𝐙𝐈𝐄

5.50

haysum

hey
are you okay

nardeeya

um
depends
what is it in reference to

haysum

life, i guess

nardeeya

oh
well in that case
i'm not okay

haysum

i'm sorry, and always here for you
do you want to talk about it?

nardeeya

yeah that would be cool, i haven't been able to talk about it with any of my other friends because of the situation

haysum

oh okay
whats the situation?

nardeeya

ruby convinced me to get in to see a counsellor
and turns out i may have mild depression
so that's great

haysum

aw, nadia
i'm sorry

nardeeya

it's ok haysum
i think i've always been a sad person just because of my whole upbringing and the money shit
but then i made some really bad choices to do with johnny and mackenzie and i guess that kinda fucked me up a bit

haysum

oh :(

nardeeya

i just feel so alone all the damn time
and everyones in love and i just really wish i had one person that i could go to for love and they could just hug me and make it all better but noone likes me like that and it makes me sad :(

haysum

nadiaaa i had no idea you felt like this
what about darius?

nardeeya

darius is out of my league

haysum

that's not true, darius is a good person just like you

nardeeya

really
well im sure he would want to date someone so sad all the time
and anyway noone loves me so why would he

haysum

cut the crap nadia you have so many people that love you- friends, teachers, coaches, parents, family, pets

nardeeya

that doesn't count

haysum

yes it does nadia
love doesn't diminish just because it's not romantic love
believe me

nardeeya

that's a good point hayden, but i'm still alone
and you know what hurts? seeing everyone else happy. maddie and kailand, you and lauren, and most of all johnny and kenzie

haysum

johnny and kenzies relationship isn't healthy and you of all people should see that

nardeeya

yeah but regardless they're still happy

haysum

i guess

nardeeya

can i tell you a secret

haysum

sure

nardeeya

sometimes i get so mad at the both of them that it scares me. it just fucks me off that they live inside their own stupid perfect world where everything is happy and they don't even have their eyes open enough to see how many people are fucking mad at them. like, both of their families are going insane, the teachers at school are pissed, johnnys teammates all think he's a dipshit and mackenzies cheer girls are basically running themselves. how can they be so far up eachothers asses that they can't even see what they're doing to people and how selfish they're being? like jfc open your eyes!!

haysum

fuck you worded that good
i've been so angry for so long at them and that's exactly how i feel

nardeeya

grrrr

haysum

okay that's it 😾
i'm doing it

nardeeya

doing what?
haydennn?!?!
hayden what are you doing
fuck you hayden answer me
HAYDEN!!!

AUTHORS NOTE

lol guess what haydens going to do i can guarantee none of you will guess 😳🥵🥶