Toy Soldiers (Tell me a lie- sequel)

Chapter 20

No Angels - Bastille and Ella Eyre

Niall's Point of View

It didn't take as long to get home as it did to get to the stadium but still, it was a journey and a half. I didn't speak to Liam the whole way back and I could tell he was upset. I don't know where this leaves us. I know we aren't going to break up but.. I think we just need a break. 

I know that I haven't been with him for ages but everything is too much for me and I can't cope with it. 

The bus pulls up about a 5 minute walk away from my home. Liam and I walk along the quiet street, hands still connected and arms slightly swinging. The air was cold and bit at my cheeks while the moon lit up the pathway home. 

We drew closer to the house and that's when Liam stopped me. Frowning, his spare hand touches my shoulder and pulls me around to face him. "Liam?" I question. 

"I have a lot to say to you, Ni. However the main points being that I love you still. I was - am, in the wrong. I shouldn't have said anything and I am so sorry." He pauses for a second. As I open my mouth to speak, he cuts me off and talks. "Please don't say you forgive me either. I couldn't bare for you to forgive me like that and I don't know why. You do not look like crap, not at all. You are beautiful and amazing and damn, Ni, you are such a strong person." No, I'm not. 

"Liam." I say softly, looking up at him and into his eyes. Our bodies were pressed gently together, warming them up. 

"I am completely oblivious to the whole eating thing and for that, I am sorry. I want to help you. It's going to be hard for you and me. But I will fix you again. And then, maybe one day, we could go out for a proper dinner. 3 courses. We'll eat and eat until we pop!" 

"Lili." I stop him again. All this talk about food and eating, I can't do it. Him just saying that makes me want to throw up. "Please stop." I whisper then place my forehead against his shoulder. 

"Niall?" He asks, kissing my head. He unlocks our fingers and wraps his arms around me comfortingly. "What's wrong?"

"You are going to fast and I don't like it. All this talk about eating until we pop makes me want to cry. I can't do that, Li." I confess, my voice breaking. 

"That's why I am going to help you." He starts rocking me gently, like we were on a boat. "It's going to be okay, one day." He whispers the last part. 

"We need to go." I sighed and pulled away from him, an instant cold feeling taking over my body like a blanket. "Mum will be wondering where we are." He nods and goes for my hand again but I flinch away. With one last hurt look, we walk the last 2 minutes home and I open the door to the hallway. 

"Niall!" Mum exclaims and comes running out of the living room in some PJ's. She hugs me tightly, placing kisses all over my head. "I was so worried." 

"It's okay, I am fine." I reassure her when really, I'm not fine at all.

"And you young man." She pulls away and frowns at Liam. "We will need to talk soon. It's too late for it now and you have college so off you pop. I'll see you tomorrow." 

Liam nods, looking down sadly. I want to hug him or kiss him goodbye but then again, I don't. Not just yet. He hurt me. 

"I'll see you later, Ni." He mumbles and walks out of the house, closing the door behind him.

"Come into the lounge, sweetie." Cautiously, I follow her into the warm room and sit down on a sofa, pulling a blanket around me. "While you were out, I talked the the college administrator about getting you back into lessons. She said that you had already been enrolled there anyway but we don't know who by. If you want, we can start you back up into college next monday." She explained. It was Wednesday today so Monday wasn't that far away.