Toy Soldiers (Tell me a lie- sequel)

Chapter 15

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Song: I Miss You by Blink-182

Niall's Point of View

"He seems to be taking things so well..." I woke to someone saying.

"Hmmm.... it's what's on the inside we can't know about until he tells us. That may be years. I wouldn't expect him to open up straight away anyway." A different voice said. 

I open my eyes. Then close them. It's so fucking bright. "Someone turn the sun off please." I asked. 

"Can't do that I'm afraid." Mum said. I made some sort of inhumane noise and reopened my eyes. I felt some sort of warmth around me and it felt nice. I felt safe. 

"Damn." I whispered. I turned my head around to see a sleep Liam cuddling. "Awe." I said to myself. 

"I know. He was in here when I woke up." Mum said. "I didn't want to wake him up though. We're all knackered." 

"Hmmmm.... well as nice as this is, I gotta pee." I said. I shifted around on the narrow bed and poked his nose. "Liammmmm...." He shifted a little. 

Right. I licked his cheek. "Get up... unless you want me to pee on you, I suggest moving." I said. 

"Ewie." He grumbled and the grip on me was gone. I got up and shifted myself to the nearest toilet I could find which was not too far away. I realized that I didn't have any shoes on. 

I came back from doing my business feeling better and looked around the room properly. The two voices I woke to turned out to be Auntie Marie and Uncle Luke. I did not expect them to be here. Not in the slightest. 

"Hey there..." I said and sat down onto the bed where Liam was in mid yawn. 

"Niall! Honey! How are you doing?" Auntie Marie said. 

"Meh. I haven't seen you in ages. What's been happening?" I asked. I didn't want the attention to be on me. It's frigging annoying. 

"Not much. Jocie finally started play school, Ava and Lucas are in Year 11 now and doing their exams and Abby has won an art competition for being best pencil drawer in her school. But yeah, nothing much." She said. 

"Congratulate her for me please?" I asked.

"Anything for you." 

"How long have you been here?" I said.

"Only a few hours." Uncle Luke replied. I nod and poke Liam's cheek once he had finished yawning. 

He poked out his tongue and I did the same. 

"How long were we asleep for?" He asked and I shrugged. 

"I'm not sure." I tell him and interlock our fingers. 

"So, I talked to the doctor Niall and she said that you would be staying another night." Mum said. I nodded. I knew this of course. "Do... do you really want to kill yourself...?" She asked me suddenly. I looked down. That caught everyone's attention. 

How do I reply to that? Maybe, mother. I mean after all this shit I've been through, you wouldn't think that those thoughts hadn't crossed my mind?!

"Oh honey..." She whispered and came to give me a hug. I let her hug and cry into my shoulder but I made no attempt to move. "You can talk to me, you know." She said and pulled away to wipe her tears. 

"Yeah, I know." I said. But the question was, when? When would I talk about it? My mind raced to Sebastian. Fuck. I hope the little man is okay. Shit shit shit. If he's with David then he's obviously going to be having a mental breakdown. I'm not sure how bad Steven is, but he cannot be worse than David. Or Sam.

I can't believe I left him like that. I'm horrible. God knows what's going on with him right now. 

"Niall?" Liam asked. 

"Hmm yeah? Sorry." I said and looked at him.

"Please don't leave me again." He said and there and then, I broke down in tears. I fell back into Liam's arms and he hugged me. He tried to comfort me. 

"I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry, Li. I wish I could just forget everything. I want to curl up into a ball and hoped this never happened. But it did and I don't know how to feel about it. I left a fucking 7 year old kid with David. My oldest brother whom I had never heard of until about a week ago is a fucking psychopath. I just.... I'm sorry!" I cried. "I love you." I then whispered and closed my eyes. 

"Ni, there's nothing to be sorry for. Nothing is your fault. That kid? We'll find him. We will find him and give him the love and care he needs. He will go back to his family and he will be happy." He told me, stroking my hair. I sobbed into his shirt violently. 

"It felt so normal. To be hit and kicked and treated like I'm worthless. Because I fucking am. I have no meaning in this world. I'm support for other people to lean on. A tower that's going to crumble. I've missed out on my childhood. I've missed out on 10 year friendships that breaks apart thanks to some stupid argument. I've missed out on going to the beach and building sandcastles." I ranted on. 

"You aren't worthless. You are priceless. No one could ever put a price on you. My love for you is not just to the moon and back because that's nothing. My love stretches and grows on and on as the universe expands." He comforted me and I looked up to him, smiling slightly. 

"Really?" I whispered, teary eyed.

"Really. Now, dry those tears, I can't have my beautiful boyfriend crying." He told me. I smiled. Boyfriend. Oh my god. 

"N'aww." Mum went. Dammit. I blushed and wrapped my arms around him. 

"I promise." I said once I had stopped crying. 

"Promise what?" 

"That I won't leave you." I stated and kissed him on the lips. 

Authors note: I have realized that Niall also has an Uncle Sam in the last book which I completely forgot about. Sam (the brother) and Uncle Sam are not the same person obviously. Just, letting you know