Serenity's Desire

S.D- 29

° Can't Have It All °

I was shocked because i didn't expect this. However, they werent showing my face and i recall them. The first one was where we were in Miami and we just finished having sex. My hair was messy and i was tired but he was bothering me. I was heading out on the balcony, naked, and he was holding onto my hand so he took a photo of the top half of my body. I didnt even know of these photo until now. The second one was when the three of us went to Paris for a day. When we were leaving, it was night so we went to the eiffle tower when it lit up and at that time, i had Addonis in my arms and Adam was hugging us from behind. He had the french guy took the picture. I remembered it vaguely because Adam end up tipping the guy after paying him.

Just then, the service began. The music softly died down and the paster stood on the podium. He looked at the framed photo of Adam before looking at the crowd.

"Welcome everybody in the congregation, family and friends, supporters, those at home who couldnt make it and those watching live. Welcome. We are here today to pay our tribute and our respect to a man of God, our brother, Adam Richmond. Not only have people from this congregation and his community gathered, but many ministers have come. Ministers, friends and family who have respected Adam as a man of his word and honesty, and have loved him as a friend. To know Adam was to love him!

Not only have we sensed our own personal feelings of loss over Adam’s passing, but our hearts have been drawn toward them, and will continue to be with them. We would be less than honest if we said that our hearts have not ached over this situation.  We are not too proud to acknowledge that we have come here today trusting that God would minister to our hearts, and give us strength as we continue in our walk with Him.

It is our human nature to want to understand everything now, but trust requires that we lean and rely heavily on God even when things seem unclear. Proverbs 3:5 says; Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. We will now acknowlege a poetry from his foster sister, Loreal." He said and sat the mic down.

She walked up on the stage and im sorry to say but she looked tacky and lack interest. It was as if she wanted this to be done and over with.

"Hi. Im Loreal. Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glint on snow." she spoke and walked off the podium and they applauded her.

"Okayyy." i mumbled.

Couple seconds later, they got to the rememberance and relection then a group of kids were doing a dance and a song.

"Is there a restroom somwhere?" i ask Doug.

"Yeah, its over there." he pointed to the restroom that was at the right of the building. I then realise that i had to pass Adam's family to get there.

I situated Don in my arms before picking up his bag and silently making my way to the restroom. I had to pass the media persons too. When i got there, i was happy that there wasn't anybody there because i could quickly change Don there. I spread one of his blanket on the changing table before laying him down on it. I pulled off his jeans and took his pampers off.

"Are you a grown man sir? You stink." i said and he giggled. It only made me smile for the first time today. "Be my peace." i mumbled.

"You Serenity?" i heard but i didn't answer. I was getting tired of people tracking me down as if i owe them something. "I'm talking to you dark skin bitch."

I turned around to 'Loreal'.

"I dont know who that is." i rolled my eyes and throw Addonis dirty pampers in a sanitary bin before pulling up his jeans.