We Are The Gods

Chapter 41 🖋️ The Blame

The Blame

Warning: Mild gore.

I looked at the body of my family for a long time, and I don't know what to do. I couldn't describe how I feel, nor can I stop feeling like the entire world has forsaken me at that moment.

Hindi ko alam kung titingnan ko sila o hindi, pero hindi mapasok-pasok sa isip kong wala na sila kaya gusto ko silang tingnan para ipaalala sa'kin. Para hindi ko makalimutan ang sakit na dulot ng pagkawala nila.

Nagbaha ng dugo, at laman. Parang kung anong halimaw ang dumaan sa bahay namin at hindi pinatawad maging ang maliliit kong kapatid. I don't even know how to describe what I'm seeing right now.

Nasusuka ako sa matinding sama ng loob at sakit ng nararamdaman. Remembering their smiling faces before I left, and now this...

Gusto kong magwala. Gusto kong ipakita sa buong mundo na galit ako. Gusto kong gawin sa lahat ang nangyari sa pamilya ko.

Gusto kong umiyak at magmakaawa, humingi ng tulong. Pero wala akong malapitan.

Sayang at hindi manlang kami nakapagbati nila Kuya David.

Kuya Manasseh and Kuya Solomon are still missing. I don't even know why they let them live when they killed the rest of my family. It doesn't even give me a slight moment to calm down. They're still in danger.

And I want to find them.

Maybe they have been taken, prisoners...

What if they're hurting them?

Napailing ako. Hindi ko kakayanin.

Saphria Mieran smiled at me for the last time and pushed me away. She stood up, drenched with the blood of my family that she mercilessly killed, and flashed a fake emotion of pity, sadness, and weakness. Lumapit siya kay Ares at nagpaawa. I hate her. So damn much.

Her eyes moved subtly towards me, a faint smile on her lips then turned her back. Ares looked at her.

"I gave you signs, Celeste. The gold eyes, the sparks. But you were so dumb. Your family died because of you. So don't put all the blame on me."

"Stop speaking on my mind!"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang magsalita ako sa sariling isip at hindi gamit ang bibig. Pero pakiramdam ko ay nagsasalita ako talaga.

"Why can't I speak?! Anong ginawa mo?! Gusto mo ding lokohin ang mga diyos?! Is this how selfish you are?! You're willing to have them killed by those monsters so you will be superior over everything! You just wanted power ever since! And who knows! You could've been devising this war too! You want them killed!"

Pero tila walang naririnig ang babaeng sinisigawan ko ngayon. I have no voice. I can't say anything for the gods. I should help them... but I can't. I can't even open my goddamn mouth.

Saphria Mieran betrayed them. She planned everything. Because she has access to time. She knew what will happen. And now, she knows what's going to happen next. She's going to protect me no matter what.

And in order to do that, whatever it takes, she can even be more than willing to sacrifice the gods.

But why?

What did they do to her? Why...

Wala akong makitang dahilan.

"Let's go, Ares, she needs some time to think. I just don't understand why she's blaming me. Hindi naman ako ang gumawa nito."