let's escape // larry stylinson

chapter 52

Harry POV

Almost two weeks have passed and I haven't seen Louis once since I broke up with him. People are starting to notice something is wrong. Mum, Robin, Niall, Zayn and Liam are all noticing something is off.

They've all been trying to talk to me but I'm not telling them anything. Mum and Robin would only be happy that we broke up and the lads would start asking questions I'm not ready to answer.

Gemma has been nothing but supporting and loving. She has dragged me to college and work almost every day and she keeps encouraging me to keep going. "It'll get better in time", she keeps telling me. Well, it's been almost two weeks and I'm still the mess I was two weeks ago. It isn't getting better at all, in fact, it's only getting worse.

The pain I feel is indescribable. Whenever I breathe, it hurts. It's like I've lost a part of me. Louis will always hold a place in my heart. I cannot describe how much I love I have for him. A part of me will always contain Louis, a part of me will always love Louis fiercely and passionately. Whenever I think of Louis, which is all the time, my body goes numb, I can't think straight and everything hurts. My body is bleeding, my heart was ripped out. My heart was ripped out because I loved someone, because I loved Louis so much. Maybe I still do.

I'm not gonna lie, I miss Louis, I do. I miss him a whole lot. I would never admit it but it miss him so incredibly much. I miss all the little things. I miss the movie marathons, the kisses and the cuddles. I miss holding his hand, how his hand fits in mine. I miss his smile, his laugh. I miss joking around with him and being goofy. I just miss having him around all the time.

I crawl deeper under the blanket and let the tears fall down once again. It's all I've been doing in the past two weeks, crying. I just can't stop crying.

Minutes later I hear the door opening and closing again.

"What happened to you?", I hear and look at the door to see Liam standing there with a disgusted look on his face when he looks around.

I sigh, "The room is a mess, I know."

He raises his eyebrows, "I don't think this room is the only thing that's a mess".

"What do you mean?", I ask him, already knowing what's coming. I've tried to avoid the questions they're gonna ask but I know I have to answer them eventually.

"Don't act stupid, Styles. You're a mess, and so is Louis. What happened between you two anyways?"

I feel the familiar feeling of tears burning in my eyes once again when I look up at Liam. I sit up in the bed and pat on the empty space besides me.

He sits down and puts his hand on my shoulder, "Are you okay?" I shake my head. I'm certainly not okay.

"We broke up", I manage to get out. I rest my head in my hands as I let the tears fall.

A few moment later Liam wraps his arms around me and I couldn't be more grateful for a friend like him. Always caring for me, always being there for me.

"Why did you break up?", he asks me and I swallow. I'd rather not say, to be honest.

Maybe I don't want them to know to protect myself but maybe I'm just protecting Louis. Maybe I don't want everyone to know he's a cheater. Maybe I don't want people to think of him badly. Maybe I care for him a bit more than I should. Maybe I still love him so much, even though I know I shouldn't. I know I should be getting over him but I can't.

"I don't really want to talk about it", I look at him and he slowly nods. "That's okay".

"Thanks for checking in on me, Liam", I say when he's about to leave. "Of course, lad. Any time."