Please Let Me Die...

Suicide Note

Yukio's POV

An irritated Shura confronted me when I retired to the waiting room. She told me she wanted to have a word with me in private and proceeded to drag me out of the room and into the hallway.
"Shura, what was that all about?" I asked.
"You dim-witted four-eyed chicken! What the hell were you thinking, telling your twin BROTHER that you wanted him to die?! How the hell did you not notice that your brother was DEPRESSED?!" she exploded.
"Uhh...what are you talking about?" She answered my question by revealing my Exacto knife, covered in Rin's blood, and a folded piece of paper.
"Read this. Rin was cutting himself." Hesitantly, I took the paper.
Whomever reads this, please give it to Yukio Okumura.
Yukio, I'm sorry that we were the sons of Satan. I'm sorry I was the reason Father Fuijimoto died. I'm sorry I hid my depression and cutting from you. The truth is that I have had depression ever since we were little. Every time I was called a demon, a monster, every time I was scolded for fighting, all that took a toll on me. Father Fuijimoto caught me cutting one day. He took me to the doctor and got me medication for my depression. I stopped cutting as he would check my arms and torso. I remained strong through his death, you pointing a gun at me, you scolding me for every little thing. When the ExWires found out about me, after I fought Amaimon to save them, and betrayed my trust, my faith, my walls came crumbling down. Each crude remark was branded into my mind, into each cut I made on my arms. I never told you this, mainly to protect you and your perception of me, but I am actually intelligent. I'm ahead of the class, though I fail tests and homework to keep up my persona of a juvenile delinquent. This persona is what enabled me to protect you. Mephisto kept my secret and gave me an IQ test. I scored a 234 on it. I'm sorry I lied and hid everything from you. I'm sorry that I was the reason Father Fuijimoto died. I'm sorry for everything.
Yukio, I hope that you're happy I left.
Kuro, I'm sorry I left you and I'll miss you.
Kyoto Trio, I wish the Blue Night had never happened.
Miwa, I was only trying to help and protect you guys. Never hurt you. I'm sorry.
Shima, I know you didn't hate me, even though you agreed with Bon and Miwa.
Bon, I did as you asked. I died.
Shiemi, I wish you were never afraid of me, I would've never hurt you. I'd die before I hurt you.
Shura, I'm sorry. I couldn't deal with the abuse, the daily beatings, the pain of betrayal.
-Rin Okumura
Tears stung my eyes as I finished reading the suicide note. I couldn't believe that he had gone through this. Shiemi had said she saw his medications, and his scars. Tears silently made their way down my face. Shura hugged me, knowing that I needed the comfort.
"We better go back in case they have news on him," Shura said, "Should we show them the note?"
"No. Not right now," I replied, opening the door to the waiting room.

Rin's POV

Darkness, pitch black darkness, surrounded me on all sides. I felt as if I was falling but somehow suspended in midair. The darkness started to fade, morphing into a beautiful garden with exotic plants, the sky being the color of a ranunculus, a beautiful pink flower.
A man with long navy blue hair and sapphire blue eyes appeared in a flourish of blue flames. Satan. I was the spitting image of Satan.
"My son, how good to see you. I know our last meeting wasn't ideal, and I would like to apologize for that. I was furious that Fuijimoto had stolen you from me, and had kept you away. I'm sorry I killed the one human in Assiah that had ever cared for you," Satan said, shocking me. He was apologizing instead of trying to kill me?! I thought.
"Why aren't you trying to kill me?" I replied.
"My son, if I may call you that, I would never try to harm you. You are my youngest son, and the heir to Gahenna. You are my favorite child, my image, and my blood." I didn't know if I could trust this, despite Satan's reasoning being pretty reasonable and honest.
"How do I know if you're telling the truth?"
"You can trust me because this," Satan revealed a luminous oath stone dangling from a leather strap around his neck, "would shatter if I ever lied to you. I took an oath to never lie to you the moment I returned to Gahenna after Fuijimoto's death." He said.
In the cram school, they had covered a few Gahennian stones. One was the oath stone, which was a translucent, luminous sapphire found only in Gahenna and on demons. A demon or human could make an oath in the presence of a truth stone and apply a small drop of their blood. This would shatter the stone if the oath maker broke their oath. The stone only became luminous upon activation.
We went on, me asking questions like how he was in my dream and why, etc. Eventually, he invited me to Gahenna. He said my eight other brothers, including Mephisto and Amaimon, missed me and wanted to get to know me. He promised me love, acceptance, support, loyalty, honesty, and family. He swore upon the oath stone as well, making these things concrete. I accepted his invitation on the condition Kuro would be sent as well.
After our conversation my world went black once more, this time fading away as I awoke in a... hospital room? How the hell?

Yukio's POV

I was nervous, feeling like a crappy brother, and altogether depressed from the note. The ExWires were nervously watching me, noticing that I seemed depressed, but remaining silent.
About three hours after I read the note, a nurse came in.
"Mr. Yukio Okumura?" they said.
"That's me," I said, rising and walking over to them, "Is this about my brother?"
"Rin made it and is in recovery. He is still comatose, however, and we don't know when he'll wake up. We have to wait another two hours before we can prep him for MRI and CAT scans. You can see him now if you wish. He's in recovery 8. It's a large private room."
"ExWires, Shura, come on. Let's go see Rin," I said and followed the nurse. We reached Rin's room about five minutes later. The nurse opened the door and motioned us in before leaving.
Rin was attached to a heart monitor and IV. Gently, I set Kurikara down beside Rin on the bed, curling his hand around it.
"Rin, I'm sorry for everything that I did and I hope you forgive me when you wake up," I said, confusing the ExWires.
"Shura, I think it's time the ExWires knew the truth." Nodding to me, Shura revealed the Exacto knife and note. She passed the note around and explained that Rin had depression and was driven to cutting and had tried to kill himself when Shiemi got in the way and fell with him.
Bon laughed, Shima joining him, while Konekomoru said that he wish Rin had succeeded. Izumo started to silently cry while the puppet boy remained emotionless.