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10: life with amari

"go kiss dada!"

I exclaimed, my two year old daughter, carefully ran towards king.

"missed my amari." king said softly kissing her cheek. I stood up from the playpen.

"how was work?" I asked, he smiled and hugged me, hugging the both of us. Amari's giggle can be heard.

"did you go to your parent's house na ba king?" I asked him, kumakain kami ng dinner, I, while feeding myself was also feeding amari,

"yes, pero dapat pala dinala ko si amari, because I'm sure di nila matitiis kasi kamukha ko 'yan eh!" he joyfully said, pinching amari's eyes, I rolled my eyes as a joke.

"what? Sino nagsabi na kamukha mo? Ako kamukha ni amari!" I teased, amari was giggling, laughing at us,

King was now back to showbiz, kasi nga two na si amari, yung mga manager's and big bosses pumayag na until 2 si Amari yung break namin, so I had to go back also, leaving her behind hurt the most, pero kung iisipin mo, para sakanya din naman yung ginagawa namin, for amari's future. We also talked to them about shooting hours, we want to be able to go home to amari pag weekdays and completely no work for weekends. Life was easy, Life was good. But all good things must come to an end.

I was proud of myself, even though I was a mom at 17, there was no regrets in my part. Lumaki ako sa orphanage and I was lucky enough that someone had sponsored my education, hanggang fourth year highschool nga lang, but then I tried entering showbiz and it changed my life, at 15, I was doing vtr's screen test, until at 16, I was discovered.

I met king at a party, we both got drunk and well, we had sex. I am lucky enough that king was a man of his word, a decent man, pinanindigan niya ako at si Amari, he was and still is the best father in world.

"minahal mo ba ako king?" I asked him, nakaupo kami sa sahig, staring at the niche, his hand on mine, tears stained both of our cheeks.

"what made you think about that?" he asked, I was annoyed that he didn't answer my question.

"kasi we moved so fast. Wala tayong time to get to know each other, until binahay mo na ako, nanganak ako, ang alam ko lang, size ng damit mo, size ng brief mo, kung paano mo gusto yung itlog mo sa umaga, or how you only work out kapag wednesday's. I never got to know what your favorite color is, your favorite ice cream flavor," I mumbled, he laughed heartily,

"you know more about me than anyone else gi, hindi alam ni kryza kung paano ko gusto ying itlog ko sa umaga, kasi hindi siya observant. She might know my favorite color gia, but she doesn't know me at all." he said,

"why did you let me leave?" I asked him, he swallowed,

"I was always scared when it comes to you, sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, I robbed you the chance to explore the world, but you took care of Amari, took good care of me, Mahal na Mahal kita gia, you were everything that I wanted, I wanted to marry you, but then Amari left us, natakot ako na baka hindi natin kayanin, na mas mahihirapan tayo kung kasal tayo, when you asked me to go to germany, it took everything in me not to say yes and left with you, madali naman iwan ang showbiz, may ipon tayo, may business tayo, kaya natin eh, pero sabi, I had to let you find yourself, kasi may nawala sayo, I held you back the first time, I didn't want you to make me your world gia." he explained, running his hand through his hair.

"sayang tayo," I whispered.

"sa ibang mundo gia, sa ibang mundo siguro."