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12: our truth

"Hi this is Georgiana San Pedro, and this will be the only present video that i'll post."

I started, smiling at the camera, I was wearing a white t-shirt, putting my hair behind my ear, I smiled even more. Nanonood sa likod ng camera si kryza at si king. Which boosted my confidence.

"I'll be releasing the videos of amari later after I post this video. Nakaprivate lang 'yun so mabilis lang." I paused,

"I'm Georgiana San Pedro, again, I'm sorry, I'm really nervous. But I go by Gia, and I was an actress, I entered showbiz when I was 16, hindi pa ako sikat nun, but I am an orphan, ulilang lubos and I don't know any family members that might still be alive. As many of you knew, I was partnered up with King, King Pangilinan." I said and that was king's cue to enter. He smiled and waved to the vlogging camera, that we borrowed from kryza.

"We actually met at a party and got drunk and to make it fast, he got me pregnant at 16." I explained, sipping from my coffee mug to calm my nerves.

"that was the reason why we were missing for almost two years. We raised our daughter Amari Athena, we lived together in a house in QC" king said, I smiled,

"then we went back and acted as if nothing happened, we wanted to keep amari safe so we hid her from the world," King continued.

"Our journey with amari didn't last long. Amari passed away when she was 3, her heart was enlarged. And that was the reason why we took a break and I left the philippines." I finished, king smiled at me, and then at kryza.

"you might be wondering, why now lang? To gain viewers for our movie? No. We wanted a fresh start, I need to escape from the past, and I think in a way, this means to let go, and just move on, ang tagal ko ring dinala sa dibdib ko, Amari deserves to be known, Amari didn't deserve the hiding. I think letting out our truth, would set us free." I said,

"Things didn't end well for us, after amari left us I cheated, with a woman I met at the bar, which is foolish of me, hindi ko naisip na hindi lang ako yung nasaktan, Gia lost our child, and lost me after, doble yung grief ni gia, and I take full responsibility, I'm the reason why she left the country, four years ago" King said.

"so this is the end, the end of us, the end of hiding Amari, the end of hiding the truth, matagal na rin naman kaming tapos, In a way, I think, we weren't meant for each other talaga, if it wasn't for Amari, I guess, wala namang magiging kami, But I loved king with all my heart." I said and leaned my head in his shoulder, he smiled at me.

"I am, Georgiana San Pedro,"

"King Pangilinan,"

"this is our truth." we said in unison.

And I posted the video. Making all of my home videos with Amari, public on youtube, and I posted an update on my instagram, me wearing the ring king was supposed to ask me with, and a family picture in the background, the day Amari was born, and the day we took a family picture in the hospital.

GeorgianaSP: What we could've been. #AmariAthena

Everything now, is a thing in the past, hindi ko naman maibabalik si amari, and hindi naman kami magkakabalikan ni king, the pain was too much for us, and honestly, you can't be inlove with someone when the first thing you feel when you're with them is pain.

Mahal ko si king, that's a fact, pero the first thing that I feel whenever I see him is pain, pain because amari looks just like him, and pain because he left me. The next thing that I feel is comfort, because he knows me best and knows me the most, and that is why I think hindi kami pwede ni king.

"uwi ka na georgiana, miss ka na namin ni solia!" ash said to me via instagram dm, and with a picture of them smiling.

I didn't feel so empty anymore.