Kung Saan Tayo Natapos

8: finally ready

"I love you baba."

Sabi ni kryza kay king, I, again, fought the urge to roll my eyes and stab her with my fork.

Sa tagal ko sa showbiz, never akong lumandi kay King ng ganyan, I know anniversary nila and blah blah blah pero kumakain kami, nakakasuka.

I opened my bag to search for my inhaler,

"okay ka lang ba gia?" tanong ni kryza, I nodded and gave her a thumbs up. She smiled and continued to make lambing,

"akyat muna ako." I announced, direk nodded and I fixed my bag,

"okay ka lang ba?" Ate tin asked,

"mainit lang ate, papalamig muna ako sa aircon." tumango si ate tin sa sagot ko.

Nang maka-akyat ako ay nahiga ako agad sa kama, ash sent me a picture of solia hugging him, I congratulated him kasi solia is finally coming around and is calling him dada.

Pumikit ako at hinayaang lamunin ako ng antok.

Nagising ako sa ingay sa kabilang kwarto, no, it was not king and kryza having sex, but it's the way they laugh, Ever since pumasok ako sa showbiz nung sixteen ako, I worked hard for my future, and now, I feel strange, I feel empty, I feel like there's a hole in my heart. It made me think, what if hinayaan ko si king noon?

Amari, I really wish that you are here with me, with us.

"you thinkin' bout amari?" nagulat ako sa tanong ni king, I smiled at him, papalubog na ang araw at pinapanood ko lang ang alon,

"always." I answered, he sat beside me, and gave me a bottle of water, I thanked him. He just smiled at pat my shoulders.

"ano tawag nila sayo sa Germany?" tanong niya, trying to change the topic.

"Georgiana" I answered.

"georgiana," pag-uulit niya, I badly want to cry at how he prounounces my name, it's soft and smooth, like hes was made to call me georgiana.

"I miss Amari." I said, he looked at the waves,

"I know you do." he answered.

"can we go see her?" I asked, finally gathering up the courage to visit her, he nodded.

"tomorrow? After I get my haircut?" I suggested and he just nodded. I leaned into him and rested my head in his shoulder, closing my eyes. He wrapped his arm around me.

"I miss Amari." I whispered,

"I do too, gia, I miss her too."

Kinabukasan ay sinamahan ako ni king na magpagupit, kasama din si Ate Tin na nakavideo call kay direk at kay maria na writer ng movie, to see if tama yung hair length at kung bagay sa role ni caila. After I got my approval, ate tin hurried to go back to her office, we thanked her and she left wishing us safety.

"ready ka na ba?" king asked, I tucked my hair in my ear, and smiled at him,

Hawak hawak namin ang bulaklak na para kay amari, king held my hand on the way in which made me more calm, he just smiled at lead the way, hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang lugar na to, o kung paano pumunta kay amari, but king lead the way.

"Hello Amari," bati ni king, I smiled.

"bought someone with me, someone that I know you missed." dagdag pa nito at hinigpitan ang hawak sa kamay ko. I held the niche, feeling the coldness of the marble.

"Hi Amari, I missed you. Mama missed you my dearest amari."