All The Unknown

9.

you never see death coming until your looking it in the face

I can't open my eyes, everything feels heavy. 

I can't move. 

I hear people talking, doctors, Cynthia, Meemie.

I try to focus on their words

"He had some internal bleeding..."

"...his brain shut down.."

"Will he wake up?"

"Not known for sure..." 

"Oh my God.." 

"..How could something like this happen..." 

"..we thought.." 

"..you said he was going to be fine.." 

Then a new voice joins in, 

"Abel..." 

"..who are you?.." 

"Jax...is he?"

"..he's alive.." 

I try to speak, "I'm okay! I can hear you!" but there's no avail

"We don't know if he will wake up" one of the doctors says

"my..my baby. you took away my baby!" Cynthia cries out. 

I hear a door slam open, "what the hell happened?" a deep voice yells 

I think it's King. 

"He had internal bleeding, his brain shut down. He's in a comatose state" 

"no i'm not! I'm awake! listen to me!" still no avail. 

"why don't we go outside and talk" one of the doctors says

There is shuffling of feet and a door slam. 

But then someone moves closer to the bed,

"Abel" a strained voice says, maybe Jax 

"Abel, you gotta wake up." they say

"I am awake!"  Why aren't they listening to me!?

"I don't know if you can hear me, but I gotta tell you something." they say and give a little laugh, It's definitely Jax 

"I think you're pretty cute" he says, laughing again 

He thinks that i'm..cute? 

"You're amazing, and I.." there's a muffled sob, "I really want you to wake up." more sobbing 

"I..I know we don't really know eachother. But I really want to change that" Harder sobbing follows this. 

"So please...." he sounds so upset and strained, "please Abel. Wake up" 

A hand is set onto my hand, fingers laced with mine, their warm and clammy. 

I focus on that, I focus on his hand on mine. All his words, his cute face. His awesome personality. I want everything he wants, to get to know him better. 

I focus on that. And squeeze his hand. 

The crying halts, "Abel?" he asks, "Abel, do that again" he says

I squeeze his hand again, for longer this time. 

"Oh my God, Abel. Abel say something!" he says frantically 

I try, but I can't. 

I remember all the tv shows where it's the squeeze once for yes and twice for no. 

I squeeze his hand twice, I guess he picks up on what i'm doing. 

"It's alright. It's alright. I'm going to go get the doctor. I will be right back, okay?" 

I squeeze his hand once. His hand lingers for another second, then the warmth is gone. 

"Abel is reacting..squeezing my hand...is he waking up...someone get in here!" Is all I hear of Jax's voice before I can't hear him anymore and the door shuts. 

"I'm awake"