7 Minutes of Heaven

Bab 20

2019

"Oh my God, seriously?" Amanda bertanya dengan bukan main bulat lagi biji matanya.

"Ya, serius."

"How? Kau mabuk sangat ke malam tu?"

"Pretty much. Drunk enough to say his name."

"Aidan, it's not good, okay. And I know you know that."

"Tahu."

"Then? What do you do? Being a bitch about it? Tell him the truthlah."

"But how? Aku tak sempat explain pun kat dia masa tu dia dah blah dah dari kereta aku."

Amanda mengeluh seraya menyedut Tealive yang dibelinya tadi. Salah satu kegilaan rakyat Malaysia yang aku masih tak boleh nak brain. Amanda tak terlepas dari kegilaan yang melanda rakyat Malaysia ni.

"Aidan, you really should know what's right now. And just because it's pleasing you, doesn't mean it is good."

"Tapi, Manda, it's Ridzuan. You know him. Sufi knows him."

"I know. And aku yakin Sufi sebenarnya setuju dengan apa yang aku cakap ni. Just that mungkin dia tak sampai hati nak cakap kat kau sebab well, dah bertahun kan korang kawan. Move on, Aidan!"

"It's not easy as it sounds."

"To quote Coldplay, 'Nobody said it is easy' so take a risklah. Lagipun, bukannya bila aku suruh kau move on, aku expect kau akan lupakan dia by today. Take your time but try."

"Susah, Manda. Kalau tak kenapa dalam masa 10 tahun ni aku tak pernah try?"

"I don't know you as much as Sufi does but Aidan, you are just hurting yourself. Semua ni worth it ke? Does he see you the way you look at him?"

"I don't know. Maybe."

Amanda mengeluh berat. Memang payah kalau kau berkawan dengan Aidan yang degil ni. Tapi degil aku pun, aku tahu apa sebenarnya yang berlaku. Cuma aku tak menceritakan sepenuhnya kepada mereka berdua apa yang terjadi.

"Anyway, how's Zarkhoni? You look happier with him compared than before."

"Well yeah, he's young. Young, wild and free. But aku pun takdelah nak push dia into marriage sangat pun. He's only 21 pun apa je boleh buat."

One thing pasal Amanda is, dia sama macam aku. Once in a relationship, he's really into it. Also masa dengan Zarkhoni nilah, aku nampak yang Amanda ni dah mula fikir yang dia dah tua dan dia nak settle down. Yelah bila kau dah lagi dekat dengan 30 daripada 20, segalanya memang berubah.

"Manda..."

"Ya?"

"How to forgive, actually?"

"You don't talk about Flynn when we are talking about someone else who is way more important."

Aku tak tahu macam mana aku hendak ceritakan kepadanya. Ini bukan tentang Flynn. Buat apa lagi aku hendak bercerita tentang mamat yang dah belasah aku separuh mampus lepas tu ada audacity untuk buat macam takde apa?

"Aidan..."

"What?"

"This is not about Ridzuan, right?"

Aku tak memberi apa-apa respon. Hanya mengemam bibir.

"Quoi t-il fait?"

"Just answer my question first."

"Did Sufi knows?"

"No."

"Did he know what he did?"