The Night Talks • Vents

i dont know what to do

i cant breathe
nothing is okay
im told to shut him out
but his name is screaming in my head

i need someone to listen
but ill just annoy you
but goddammit
my head is going to end me

i just want to stop
stop the fucking wondering
stop the craving for answers
because i wont get any

he left because i wasnt enough
he left because i didnt deserve him
he left because i was overwhelming
he left because of me

just fucking accept it
youre worthless
you shouldve died back in eighth grade
when no one fucking knew

you wouldnt have met him
or her
youd be dead
and thats better than whatever this hell is

i want to die
and i cant push it away
this feeling is killing me
literally and it wont stop until it wins

but not tonight
because ill get scared
hell im scared by thinking of it
im a little bitch

but this hurts
it hurts too much
its been a year evan
let it fucking go