Dear Ezra,
im not in trouble i promise, its just that people are bringing trouble to me. its hard sometimes i feel like cutting these people out of my life like i did with a couple people the latest one was one of the greatest desicions i have ever made. sounds rude but i was not going to deal with this kid anymore. i liked him at first and once i noticed i didnt want to be anything more than freinds and tod him he got butt hurt. i mean its sucks getting told by the girl you really like that you can only be friends but the way he seemed to act was that its ok not big deal its mutural. but everytime we would talk he would argue with meand say that ut was all my fault that i argue with him all the time. so last week i made a choice to delet him off snapchat if i unfollowed him twitter i would never see the end of it trust me. he is acting sooo immature. he became friends with a good friend of mine and so he snapchats her and face times her all the time and everytime they talk guess who its about? you gussed correctly! ME!!! he complains to her and cries to her saying he still likes me like this kid needs a life i cant deal with him anymore. hes such a annoying little turd. im sorry but its true i dont need some one like him in my life.
E so at school i made friends its great theyre all really nice im glad theyre my friends. but idk ive fallen hard for one of them well not really its more like i never thought i would have a crush on this kid. i only saw him as a friend but i guess my other friends saw something between us. they knew before i knew that i had a crush on him. its weird. well i canceled my so called "first date" oh gosh im happy about that. having my first ever date be at chipotle and i have to dirve us?!?!?! like really!!! im not kidding. this kid was to cocky and to into himself. if i guy likes a girl and have different sports team dont ever tell her, her team sucks!! his team is freaking 0-9 mines 6-3 like bruh really?!?! idiot. i mean we decied to be just friends but the asshole literaally saw me the next day and school and ignored me he even had his friends ignore me like WHAT?!?! i knew his friends before i even knew him!! but its what ever. so back to the crush i have. well me and him decied to go to panda cause we were hungry. so we went sounds weird but i payed for his food when he was going to but after when we sat down instead of going back to school so everyone could pick from our food we stayed and talked. he told me stuff his best firend knows. like i asked if his coach knows i asked because everyone has a close relationship with their coach but he said no. something weird happened and we just smiled and stared at each other for like a good 30 seconds. and then started laughing and went back to eating. like that kinda was the moment i figured hes cute. so we decied to walk there because it was close but when we walked back we saw a couple of the boys on his basketball team and said hello to me and gave me a hug but when they said hi to him they were like damnnnnnn our boys going for it. idk what they meant by that but walking back to campus we talked and we were talking about relationships and he said something and i agreed with it said it was true that he was cute. and he blushed laughed and said thanks. i mean he seems like the kind of guy that would treat a gril like a princess. i mean alot of gys do but it was different with him. it kind of was like the way albert was. hence on the word was!!!! i found out something about why albert did what he did but i just want to forget about him and get him out of my life but i CANT because my freaking cousin is one of his "closest friends" BLUH!! but hey why do i keep thinking about guys and crap i need to focus on school i need to do better.!
well i guess i am in bit of trouble but hey i got you helping me
thanks E <3 love you!!
Mari
