Hey Ezra,
sorry i never write to you. ive been distracted. you know by everything! my social life my church life well my life in whole. its just i think to much, over things i shouldnt be over thinking!
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lets start off with school. sounds crazy i'm happy that i get to go to school. i drive to and back with no complains. my grades are fine. i still dont know what i want to major in. everyone always asks what i want to do i just dont know yet! i still have like a year and a half to choose so there is no hurry for me, but it gets annoying when everyone asks. you see it all the time since youre with me all the time. well what can i say im not the perfect assyrian child who knows what they want to major in. im different im not like all the other perfect assyrian children.
well on Feb. 25th i lost some one very close to me. well not just me all of my high school family lost someone very important. and it hurts knowing hes gone. but you know what they say God picks the prettiest flowers in his garden and i guess he picked Creighton. he was one heck of a friend. if it werent for him i wouldnt someone of the person i am today. he taught me to smile at everyone no matter what you never know whether a person is having a good or bad day so just smile. it just hurts knowing one of the strongest people i have ever met is gone. but at least he's up their with Nana Shmoni, Nana Fahima, Baba Goora and everyone ive lost and everyone one whos up there. he use to call me Mar instead of Mari or Little Toma i remeber last year in the gym he came up to me and said: "Hey Mari can you sing?" i started laughing i told him: "Creighton i cant sing for my life, but i love music! i love playing my piano. haha i cant sing for shit!" " Mar so what if you suck i cant sing either you think i can sing? remeber always try something even if you suck at it even if you think you suck at it just try! now sing with me! you know Pumped up kicks?" "yah i do Creighton" then we started singing. he stopped me in the middle of singing and said "Little Toma you got a good voice you just need practice!" "i know how to sing everyone knows how to sing but i sound bad Creighton" "well Little Toma just try!" then we went off and played a little basket ball. everything i learned in basket ball i learned from him. i owe it to him. he has done alot for me and all my friends and family and you know that cause you were there everytime!
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so remember that guy i liked in one of my classes? well all of last week he was acting really weird. i felt hurt cause to be honest i thought we were just really good friends but alot of people in the class thought there was something going on and i didnt have an answer cause i didnt know what was up. but there are 2 girls in the class that really dont like me and you can tell. she makes these stupid faces at me all the time when im with him even when were looking at each other. so instead of confronting her i went to him and talked about everything on thursday i told him how i felt and he didnt feel the same way. i was sad and i was going to walk away crying but i was strong enough not to. everyone probably thinks we are over like everything our friendship everything is gone but really its not! im his number 1 best friend on snapchat we text once in a while. were still friends and i hope it stays like that:)
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at church last week i was at my first official youth core meeting :) im happy im part of the youth core i feel more involved then i was before. its fun i like it:)
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we have a house in modesto and the people staying there are leaving which is kind of sad we became really close and i found out they new my grandparents and other family members very well back then. the priest and his family are the ones who stayed there. so the priest came over today and when he was leaving he called me to come cause he had something for me. he gave me a cross clip so i can put in my book. we always talked about school and stuff. i sucks that hes leaving but his family and him are happy.
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so Ezra i think im going to write more to you. how about once a week every sunday i send you something so during the week i get to write everything that happens. thanks for everything again ezra. love you <3
Love
Mari :))
