Dear Ezra,
i keep saying ill write to you once a week and i never do!! i am really sorry im just not doing greaat. i always get sick there is always something wrong with me no matter what!! it just gets so annoying. and people oh my gosh wait i just got yelled at for saying oh my gosh by my dad "i shouldnt say that" you are truly the only one i can turn to like there is no one to trust. i thought i had dimitri as a friend and only as a friend but i guess i dont. and if i talk to someone i am judged right then and there. to be honest Albert was the only one that listened and cared even if we were only friends for like a month he was the only one!! well him and you, the only ones. well now its just you. i have never done anything to have some one be soo mad at me like my two cousins. what i want to understand is what i did. but i know i didnt do anything so i dont care about them at this moment. i feel like if i just put my head phones on and listen to one direction and 5sos i can get lost in my own world. no problems no nothing no one bothering me getting mad at me. but the down side is i dont haveany one to talk to. i wish i was frineds with the one direction and 5sos boys i wouldnt have people that say they are my friends and hate me. they would love me for me. luke was quoted saying find something that makes you happy and dont let anyone take it from you. he is right so the boys is what makes me happy and no one will ever take that from me cause theyre all i have <3
until next time e
Mari
