Push - Evril [Evan X Avril]

Chapter 11

Previously...

Jesse was furious, but he knew he couldn't do anything. Yet.

Now it has been a month since The Bonez Tour has started. When around Evan, Avril was pretty happy. Until one morning, Evan woke and saw that Avril was shaking in her bed.

''Avril? Hey, what's wrong?!''

She turned over and her make-up from yesterday was smudged and highlighted her dull eyes.

''I..I'' she sniffed ''I had a horrible nightmare''

''What could possibly be so terrifying to make you cry and shake?''

''Can we not talk about it? It's only a dream after all''

''Okay? Are you sure you're okay?''

''Yeah no worries''

He smiled and kissed her forehead and went to take a shower. While Avril was laying in her bed, preoccupied by thoughts.

Chapter 11

As Evan slowly stepped out of the shower, he heard Avril cry. So he dressed really quickly and peeked around the corner. She was writing something. A diary? He decided to let her finish and when she does, he will try to calm her down. He waited a while then finally, she stopped writing and put the keys under the pillow.

''I'm sick of seeing you cry''

Evan finally spoke. Avril was silent.

''Show me your hands''

''Why?''

''I need to make sure you're not cutting''

''You know I wouldn't do that''

''You almost did once''

She sighed and showed him her hands.

''Clean''

He smiled a little.

''You listened to me''

''Duh.'' He chuckled, so did she.

''Let's get some food! I need to take my mind off of...well...you-know-who"

"Lord Voldemort?" They chuckled

"No idiot!"

"I know I know. Sorry!"

"Well, I guess we should go now? I mean if you want to"

''Nuh-uh! Brush your teeth first''

Avril bursted out laughing and nodded later.

While she was brushing her teeth, Evan thought whether he was going to read her diary now, or later.

"Hey it's going to take a while. I'm going to shower as well" She shouted from the bathroom.

"Okay, don't worry! Take your time!" he shouted back.

Now was his chance. He took the keys that were under the pillow and slowly opened her diary. It said:

"Dear diary,
I can't believe what happened last night... I really need help, but I'm scared to tell anyone. I promised to not hide any secrets from Evan, but if he knew that I was raped by Jesse, it would put him in danger and that's the last thing I want. What am I supposed to do now? Just let it be? No, it seems wrong. Tell the cops? Nuh-uh! Once he's out of jail, which will eventually happen one day if they even arrest him, he will do it again! Oh Jesus, I'm really scared now. But mostly, I feel guilty. Guilty for not telling Evan. Oh, things would be so much better if I fucking realized earlier how perfect he is! If he only told me how he felt earlier! If only Chloe wasn't a part of our lives! I would now be in a warm bed snuggling with him! I would have warm breakfast served! He would have been so gentle and kind to me! But no, I had to pick Jesse! I'm so stupid God damn it! I chose to share a room with Evan because I'm scared of Jesse and what he could do to me. With Evan I feel so safe. I don't know what else Jesse is capable of when we are alone...like last night... What is he planning on doing to me next? I don't even want to imagine!
I think Evan is done with the shower. I have to go, but I will write soon, I promise. But for now,
Goodbye,
Avril Lavigne.
November 25th, 2004."

He was in shock. He didn't care if she was in the shower, he wanted to hug her so tightly and never let go. Evan was feeling terrible. He promised to keep her safe and watch over her, yet, he failed. How could he let this happen right underneath his nose? The water in the shower had stopped. He quickly closed the diary and put everything where it was before. When she was out, he acted normal, but inside, he was torn apart.

The two spent the entire day together, in the evening he helped her get ready for the concert.

While she was checking the setlist, someone grabbed her shoulders. She recognized that touch. Jesse.

"Keeping our little secret? Good girl" Shivers ran down through her spine as she slowly turned around. In the corner of her eye, she saw Evan, looking at them really suspiciously with his arms crossed.

"He's looking" she whispered to Jesse, then leaned in and softly kissed him. Knowing that Evan could call the cops on him any time he wanted, he tried not to piss him off and kissed Avril back.

After what seemed like ages, they pulled away and Evan was no where to be seen.

"Did you tell him anything?!"

"No! I swear! He just doesn't trust you one bit since...well, you know when." He smirked

"That's my girl" Jesse... kissed her forehead and SMILED?!

Avril was shocked but she smiled back at him.

"Hey, I have to get going, the show starts soon. You should get ready as well."

He nodded and Avril walked into the backstage bathroom to put her makeup on.

"Still kissing and cuddling with him? Wow." She heard Evan say.
"Yeah, why?" She replied, not taking her eyes off of the mirror.
"Jesus, how can you stand him?" Evan raised his voice a little.
"Shhh! Keep your voice down!"
"Why does it matter? Nobody's here."
"Yeah but someone might come any second"
"Good. I want them to."
(YES I TOOK A FEW LINES FROM PRETTY LITTLE LIARS DON'T JUDGE ME I'M OBSSESSED!)
Avril turned her head and gave him the 'are you serious?' look.
Evan sighed
"I'm sorry. You know I don't trust him since-"
"I know. But remember that Jesse is a human being as well and he has his soft, weak and vulnerable sides."
He smiled
"How do you do that?"
"Do what?"
"Keep your head up and stay positive. After everything that's happened to you? Just...how?"
"I just want to see other people happy because that makes me happy. I put myself on the last place and everyone else in front of me"
"That is so sweet, but you shouldn't do it as much now. See where it got you?"
"Yeah, I guess so"

Again, the two looked into each other's eyes and smiled. Before you knew it, both of them were leaning in. Until finally, their lips connected softly. That was not what Avril was used to. She was used to violence and cruelty, so having someone as gentle as Evan was a miracle, and a high pleasure.

Avril realized what she was doing when Evan pulled her closer. Every inch of her body wanted to stay like this, but she couldn't. I mean, she was dating Jesse! It's just wrong. But why does it feel so right?

She pulled away slowly, feeling terrible. Then said
"I-I'm sorry... but...I c-can't"
She headed for the door, but Evan stopped her.
"H-hey, I know you have a boyfriend and all that...but...I can't be the only one here who feels..."
His face turned a little pink.
"N-never mind"
"It feels right, doesn't it?"
He nodded
"I thought the same, but honestly, I don't know what to think or believe anymore"
"Me neither"

Silence filled the room for a few moments, then Avril spoke

"Let's keep this between us. Okay?"
He nodded. She smiled at him and slowly left the room. But that one question was stuck in her head.

Why does it feel so right?

I LOVE KILLING ALL OF YOU EVRIL FANGIRLS OUT THERE (LIKE MEH LOL)
SERIOUSLY NO MATTER THAT IT IS MY STORY I CAN READ IT 94726532197 TIMES AND I WILL STILL FANGIRL OVER MY OWN WORDS!