Venting i guess??

Wtf

I've never sort of directly talked to my crush, but he's talked directly to me. Like I throw a question out there to the group, and nobody hears me but him, and he answers. Or we talk directly to each other in group chats. For example, I meme around and he memes around back. Or I ask a question, he answers, I joke about it or say thanks, he jokes back or says your welcome. Also at a pool party he kept eye fucking me and we got dared to kiss and cuddle and all that stuff and he was very quiet about it and I chose not to. It was dark, and I was too embarrassed to look at him. I wish we did, though. I really want to just feel him and embrace him and hold his hands and cuddle him and take care of him and laugh with him and take funny photos with him and go places with him and I think I am in love.

I feel so bad. Some girl tried to manipulate his feelings so she could get her hook up count up, but he saw through it before she had her way with him. I just want to talk to him this summer and get closer. Please.