Spotlight {Completed}

Chapter Twenty Three

"Zach?" I spoke in pure bewilderment. He leaned against the threshold, with his chest heaving up and down.

He finally looks at my shocked face and he chuckles, "Sorry, I don't mean to bother you or anything, it's just... what you said the other day-- God I was a dick," he mutters to himself. I don't interrupt and just let him keep talking. I mean who am I to stop him from talking to me? "I, ugh, you came all the way over to my place to tell me... w-what exactly were you trying to tell me?" he asks with his eyes gaping for an answer.

I just stared in his eyes to I snapped out of the trance his big brown eyes reflected, "I... you don't remember?" I ask, not wanting to tell him what I was really there for.

He scoffs, "Of course I remember, I want to hear what you really meant-- what you came to say before you saw her," he bows his head and I straighten up.

"Remmy," I spoke before I could think. He snaps his head up towards me and try's to read my facial expression.

"Yes,"

"I- it doesn't really matter, we won't be seeing much of each other anyway, so that's that," I say and he narrows his eyes and straightens his posture.

"So that's it? Just forget about each other with a see ya later?" he mimicks and I remain silent, "what about that night?" he asks eagerly with some sort of sadness or just anxiousness rising through him.

"What night, Zach?" I ask dumbfoundedly.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about," he says, taking a step closer inside the apartment, causing me to step back.

"It shouldn't even have gotten that far; you don't want to let me in, and you know what? I don't care! I don't want to get involved with someone who clearly doesn't care about me, but what am I even saying? We were never friends, it was strictly business!" I yell, the frustration I had boiling through me, finally released.

He stares at me for a minute, "You think I don't care? We may have not known much about each other and I may have been an ass, but that doesn't mean..." he trails off and looks at me, "it doesn't mean I didn't care," he finishes softly and a million thoughts begin to rumble through my mind.

I want to believe him... I honestly don't even know why he is saying this. Why is he saying all of this? Why did he come all the way over here? I thought we were nothing. I thought there was absolutely nothing to us but just a business contract.

But he loves Remmy. He doesn't want to let me in either.

"Why are you even saying this?" I whispered inaudibly.

He stares intently at me and he inhales deeply before he throws his hands up, "I don't even know... all know is that I can't get you out of my mind Ria!" he says frustratingly.

"Why is that a bad thing?" I said a bit more angry than I meant it to be.

He looks at me as if he wasn't affected my tone, "because... I am not good for you and I know that's a pathetic excuse, but there's a lot of things you don't know about me," he says.

"You wanna know what I thought of us almost kissing?" I spoke up and he remains silent and I take a step closer where our bodies are merely touching, "I'm so glad it didn't happen," I said confidently and he looks down at me, "I don't want to get involved with someone who clearly can't make up his mind! You came all the way over here to say what? You have feelings for me--"

"I do not have feelings for you, Ria," he spat and I scoff, "I said I can't get you out of my mind, there's a difference," he says very rude and I shake my head, realizing this is Zach we're talking about.