UNBREAK MY HEART

Chapter 1

Hey guys this is my first time writing and im so happy that ive managed to do it finally.Please do excuse my grammar and my spellings English is my second language.You are going to notice that there is going to be some of my venacular language which ive tried also  to translate into English..i hope you will enjoy it and please feel free to comment and correct.With love Loloelle😊

..Ced..."im sorry Ayden.,,but i just cant ...my feelings are fading and i just cant keep clinging on 2 U when i know that the love is not genuine..

I blinked as i re-read that message over and over again.This couldnt be happening not with Cedrick.Not after all the moments we shared...no no it cant be...i thought ..i rebooted my phone thinking that maybe ..maybe my chats were mixed up maybe he had forwaded a wrong message because i knew Cedric wouldnt do this to me..not after all ive done for him after all ive been through.I turned on my phone quickly clicked Ced's number and silently praying please let be a dream...please God stop this night mare i cant stand the pain you know it God...i prayed to God talking as if i could see him right next to me.,but then  thats when reality kicked in...i had been dumped twice by two different boys at the same school...i couldnt stand the humiliation i couldnt stand their words they would kill me i was so sure of that.I wiped away my tears with the sleeve of my hoodie..and my phone sent a notification Ced online.,.some sensible thought said dont reply but the other nasty thought said kick some sense into his head so i gave a huge sigh and began

Me: what do you mean your feelings are fading.Just yesterday you were telling me how much you love me so why the sudden change?Is everything okay at home if theres something tell me we can work it out u dont have to leave me  Cedric remember you and i together forever remember our promise.,,

I hit send and immediately the message was viewed.It was as if he was waiting  to know my reaction as if he was scared or something...i saw the words typing...to be honest i felt relieved i thought maybe he was explaining why and then we would  work it out and be back to being the adorable couple team cayden ...that was our combination i mean is our combination ...i forced myself to smile..thats when Ced's message brought me back to reality...it send me crashing down .,,,my heart ached...i couldnt classify if it was physical pain or emotional but it did hurt a lot

Ced:no Ayden nothing is wrong.Its just that i dont feel the vibe anymore.And i ddnt want 2 hurt you by my behaviour of being all silent with you...you a good girl Ayden you deserve a good guy than me ...im sorry but we just have to quit this ..

I couldnt believe this i couldnt believe him...he is telling me of a good guy after all my vows i had broken just for him...i had lost the most prized possession of my body just for him and now his telling me i deserve better i couldnt just chill to his bull crap

Me:wow...just wow cedric (i had activated my nasty attitude now.)you are telling me i deserve better but just 2 weeks ago you were confessing your undying love for me in your room just after i had given you my virginity...am i some cheap meat to you..i see what they meant when they said you were heartless...how could you Ced after all that...i cant believe you

Ced:ayden stop being over dramatic you not the only teenager that has lost her virginity ..stop blackmailing to love you just because we slept together its not like you are pregnant or something...be mature Ayden accept that ppl fall out of love.,

I couldnt believe this ...This was my Cedric telling me that im being over dramatic just because we had sex wow...i had been played really playe

Me: and how do you know that im not pregnant ..lwe both know that there are 5 % chances effectiveness of the withdrawal method.so you and i are not sure if im pregnant or not...

Ced:even if you are pregnant im pretty much sure that baby wont be mine..how do i know that you did not go and sleep around with other boys aftr we did it...coz im sure i wihthdrew right on time

Thats when it dawned on me Cedric was dumping me because he was scared id be pregnant and id ruin his chances of going to his favourite University.I lied on my bed in huged my legs to my chest in a fetus position...tears cascading down my cheeks...my life had been ruined by only one single mistake...one stupid mistake,,,i cried until there were no tears left to cry...the pain i felt was unbearable,,,it was different from the pain i felt when