I was the Mistress?!

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Natatanaw ko ang kagandahan ng asul na dagat mula sa aking tinatayuan. Hindi ko mapigilang manghinayang, how the sun sets beautifully and mets the serene coldness of the sea. I wanted to enjoy the beautiful scenery of Maravilla but I just couldn't. We are staying at a fancy yet peaceful resort in Tabuelan, The Bethlehem Paradise Resort. I look down the pool area, the kid was so oblivious of the misunderstanding between his parents. I could see by the way they act, I know something is wrong. I inhaled sharply, why does my heart is heaving that I could barely breath. I felt a slight pull from my side, from the way it caress my arm I see it was my husband. I look at him sideways and smile. This man, how can I make it up to him. I want everything to end but I'm scared, there will always be that one person that I'm going to hurt.

"What is my wife thinking so deeply?" He puts his chin to my bare shoulder and hugged me tight as if his life depended on them. I close my eyes, should I tell him? I'm getting confuse and its eating me up. I smirked, why regret. I was bitch myself the past days and now I'm acting like I was being fooled.

"Hon..." Garalgal na boses ang lumabas at impit akng napahikbi. Now see yourself being thrown out of the dish Alessa, beside it was your doing. He turns me to face him, caressed my face. Concerned is evident in his eyes and that's where my guilt rush in. How can I hurt this man? How can I tell him that I cheated on him? Tell me now!

"Why? What's wrong? Hey look at me." He keeps on searching my face if I was hurt or anything that could tell him that I wasn't good. Can I really tell him now? Should I? And just then I realized that I couldn't, just not until we get back to Manila.

"Nothing hon, I guess this was just one of those mood swings from a pregnant woman." I faked a smile. "Can I rest for now?"

He absentmindedly nodded his head, guided me to walk down the stairs that connects to one of the rooms. We were located uphill that's why we could see the beautiful sunset. I gasped for air, this is keeping me sane holding his hands. He let go of my other hand and waved at Xavier and his family, he jogged to get to us.

"Papahinga muna kami ha? Masama pakiramdam ni Alessa. Kailangan ingatan, alam mo na." Pure happiness is all over his face, proud that he will become a father soon. I stared at the man standing in front of us, I bit my lower lip. Damn, I wanna be with you but I can't. We can't happen anymore and that sucks. He look at me knowingly, as if he knew what's inside me. Smiling, a painful smile.

"Sige Zek, ayos ka lang ba Alessa?" Kanina ka pa, alam mong hindi ako maayos. Tanong ka ng tanong! Napahinga ako ng malalim, pumikit at pilit na umuo sa kanyang tanong. I wanna rest, for now I will not think of anything. No stress, just wanna relax from everything you try to shove up on my sleeves, you jerk.

"Sige ha, pasok na kami." Giniya niya ako papasok at pinahiga, I turned my back on him."Hon, I love you. Whatever happens I won't let you go."

I woke up the next day, feeling nauseous. I stayed for a while and let it pass but as I stood up it gets worse. I crawled my way to the bathroom and I heard a door opens.

"HON!" A loud steps made its way to me. Zek held me up to make me stand, I gestured him to make me vomit in the bathroom. He guided me to walk, I'm not okay. Damn, its making my knees wobble. Nagsuka lang ako hanggang sa maging hangin na lang ang lumalabas sa aking bibig, pero hindi pa din ako natigil! Masakit na sa tiyan.

"Hey, we should get you to the hospital. This is not normal!" Worried, that's what I could sense with his words. But I can't care of him or anyone right now but me, I gestured him to go away."Please hon, come on."

"What's going on, I heard your shout that's why I get in." Pumikit ako, walangya ba't pa to pumasok! Naiinis na nilingon ko sila, sarap pagsasakalin ng dalawang 'to!

"Pwede ba, umalis kayo! Di ako matapos tapos dito eh!" Inis na talaga ako, masakit na ang tiyan ko. Bumuntong hininga ako, naramdaman kong may lumapit nilingon ko at c Xav yun may inilalapit sakin na may mentol. Medyo umokay ang aking pakiramdam, tumayo ako at nagmumog. Inalalayan ako ni Xav at pinaupo sa higaan.

"Salamat." Nginitian ko siya at hinanap ko si Zek na nakatingin lang sa amin at nakasandal sa may pintuan ng bathroom. Nasaktan ako, habang nakatingin sakanya na ngumingiti pero may sakit na makikita sa mata niya. Nasaktan ko siya ,si Zek na walang ginawa kundi magmahal at ibigay ang lahat saakin.

"Hon, gutom ako." Naglalambing na sabi ko sakanya, agad naman siyang lumapit. I will only answer to you, my husband, I'm sorry I smiled his way. I'm sorry I felt okay with his gestures and care. No more Xav and me, just you and me.

"Gusto mo lumabas? O dito ka na lang kakain?" May pag iingat na sabi niya, hinawakan niya din ako sa kamay. Humigpit ang hawak ko sakanya, ayoko magpang solo kami ni Xav. Pero hindi ko kaya tumayo at maglakad sa ngayon, nanghihina ako. I shook my head.

"Dito na lang ako hon, hintayin na lang kita." Bumuntong hininga siya at tumingin kay Xav, I know that look so well, hon. Kaya bago pa siya magsalita inunahan ko na siya.

"Salamat Xav pero pwede ba maiwan akong mag-isa? Medyo masama kasi pakiramdam ko gusto ko mapag-isa."

Tumango siya at nangiintindi na humakbang, salamat at walang imik silang lumabas. Pumikit ako at iidlip na sana pero nakatanggap ako ng text. Inabot ko ang phone na nasa aking ulohan. Napa buntong hininga ako, galing kay Xav.

Xavier:

Sana mag-usap tayo. Please.

Inis na nagtipa ako ng isasagot sakanya, ba't ba hindi siya maka intindi? Tigas ng ulo talaga.

'Wag muna, pero sana alam mo pag nag-usap na tayo walang kasunod na kasi tataposin ko na kung anong meron sa 'tin.

Pagka send ko hindi ako pinag antay ng matagal, nag reply agad si Xav pero hindi ko alam kung bakit kabado akong binasa yun. Alam ko na hindi magiging madali ang lahat, matigas si Xav. Ayaw paawat, mariin akong pumikit. Hindi pwede.

Xavier:

Kung matatapos lang din tayo sa ganito, sana handa ka sa gagawin ko. I'm sorry pero ayokong taposin ang kung anong meron tayo, tawagin mo akong selfish o ano pero gagawin ko lahat mapanatili lang to. Mahal kita, Alessa. Sobra.

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Paano ba yan, matigas ulo. Gusto pa mag cheat, bakasyon na di bakasyon. Hahahahaha.
MALAPIT NA MATAPOS.