Tom Holland imagines

P.Parker - Ghost of You

based on Ghost of you

I suddenly stopped in my tracks as I watch Tony hobble down the slope followed by someone who isn't Peter. He looks at me with pain in his eyes before turning to Steve. "I lost the boy, I lost him". Peter was gone, thanos had succeeded, he had wiped away half the population of the world and Peter was one of them....

"here I am waking up still can't sleep on your side".... "if i could dream long enough you'd tell me I'd be just fine"
I roll over in my bed trying to escape the beam of light that shines in through my curtains. I jump up as I realize I had moved over onto Peters side, that I had let myself be engulfed in his smell way longer than I should. I close my eyes taking in his scent being reminded of the many times he's kept me grounded, the many moments we shared in this bed together. I hoped and prayed every night that I'd go to sleep and dream of a time where he was able to hold me and tell me I'd be okay, but I could never dream long enough, instead I was woken up with cold sweats and the shakes... alone.

"So I drown it out like I always do dancing through our house with the ghost of you"
I close my eyes as the music echoed through our apartment. This was our favorite song, the song we'd dance to anytime one of us felt sad, one of us felt happy, we both felt sad, we both felt happy, anything really... it was our song. Here I am dancing with a half empty bottle of vodka listening to it on repeat pretending that his arms are wrapped around me and for a minute it feels like he's still there then suddenly it' gone.

"too young, too dumb to know things like love, I know better now"
The further I got into my bottle of vodka the more I began to think. I thought of all the times people said we wouldn't last, that we'd break up after a month or two, that we were to young and dumb to understand something as complex as love. We proved them wrong yet here I am selfishly wishing those comments had torn us apart and he left me alone because now I know what they meant when they said love would destroy us.

"So I chase it down with a shot of truth that my feet don't dance like they did with you"
I feel the tears stream down my face as I try so hard to cling to the feeling of being held in Peters arms. I had his hoodie wrapped around me, soaked in his cologne. I felt a hard pang in my chest as I take my final gulp of the bottle and fall to the floor because it was all useless. It was all pointless. It would never be the same as when I danced with Peter, I'd never dance the same as I did with Peter.

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she's bACK and she's ready to get this bread I have a whole mew mf way of speaking now so sorry if i sound like a twitter stan it's who I am now (jk stan twitter is so scary)
but yeah hoped you like this, I would let 5sos explore my gUTS but I also really like this song
peace and love bitches ✌️

(sorry if theres any spelling mistakes I'm on my fourth cup of coffee today)