Sail Away With Me (Rory McCann)

Everything

"He doesn't hate you!"

Despite all their reassurance, Tori knew the truth, it was she who had heard the tone of this voice. The mixture of both anger, sadness and despair. Rory had never called her back, despite her numerous tries to call him back and the next day she had still not heard from him. Their day off was also over and today she had to get back to work and try to smile as though everything was okay. 

"Have you spoken to Toby?" Emily asked her

"Yeah, he said I could head back home if I wanted, but I still, of course, had a job and was fine with me carrying on until filming finished".

"Least that's one good thing?" she shrugged.

Filming had just finished for lunch, so Tori didn't have much time to talk before having to go back out and complete the retouches for the next scenes. The weather again was humid and hot, and the sickness was still crippling her. Thankfully, she managed to keep her breakfast down whilst finishing her work and heading back to the trailers for a quick lunch break. Emily had left to do her work so she was completely alone now as she flicked at her salad on her plate. She didn't expect to see anyone else until she had to return back to set, so when a loud knock crashed on the door of the trailer she jumped in her seat. 

"What?" she gasped when she saw him.

"Expecting someone else?" Rory scoffed when he stepped inside and flopped down into the chair opposite her.

"What are you doing here?"

"What the fuck do you think. You're up the duff with my kid and talking about abortions. I've finished filming for the season now. What else do you think I would do?"

Sighing, Tori placed her plate down on the side and forced back the need to throw up as she ran her hand through her golden blonde hair. "I didn't mean to upset you Rory and I really don't have the strength to get into another argument with you".

"You sick?"

"Yeah... morning sickness. It's fucking crippling". 

"And that's exactly why you need to be back in the UK. Working these fucking hours, up on your feet all day in this heat. It can't be any good for you or the kid".

"I can't just go back to the UK" She sighed again.

"Why not?"

"BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING PLACE TO GO" She finally snapped and flung her arm out to push the plate of salad onto the floor with a smash.

Rory had never seen her lose her temper before. The emotion behind it was so raw he was worried what to say next, but he knew he couldn't give up on them yet. 

"Yeah you do. I know you're not my biggest fan right now and I know I fucked up, but if you'll let me I'd like to help you. I live on the boat, but I can rent you a place... a home. You can rest there and have a steady doctor to go to".

"I can't do this again" she whispered, her chest heaving from her sudden outburst.

"Do what?"

"Be looked after like some piece of property by a man" she sighed and finally brought her face up to look at him.

"You would never be that. I don't pretend to understand what went on in your past and I know I judged you on it too quickly, but Tori, I fucking love you woman. You ain't property to me, you're everything". 

Burning tears had filled her eyes and escaped down her cheeks when he said 'everything'. No one, no family, no one, had ever spoken to her like that and it was heartbreaking. "I'm so fucking scared".

"Aye, but Tori you ain't alone anymore, nor are you some little secret. I'll fucking scream it across the continent if I have too. Before you I had nothing and I thought I was alright with that. Keeping myself isolated from friends and family, a traveling loner. Then you, you just fucking walked into my world with your fucking coconut scent hair and a pretty smile. I love you woman, I love you more than I'll ever be able to explain to you and I want you, you and this baby".

"I want it too, I don't want to be alone forever, but what happens if something bad happens-"

"Aye, and I might walk out of this trailer and get hit by a bus. You can't just carry on living your entire life being scared of what's waiting around the corner". 

"Rory" she whispered and dropped her head back into her hands again. 

Quickly, he dropped from his chair and came to bend down in front of her. Pulling her arms down, he cupped her face his hands and stared into her eyes. "I'm sorry".

"Me too" she nodded as the tears dropped from her cheeks and onto the floor. 

"Will you let me in and let me help you?"

Gently, she nodded her head and leaned in towards him. Wrapping her arms tightly around his shoulder she began to cry into him as he wrapped his arms around her and held her tightly. They stayed in each other arms as he waited for her cries to calm down. Their moment together was quickly interrupted when one of the assistants came into the trailer. 

"Fuck off" Rory snapped at him without turning around to see who it was. 

Tori smiled at his grumpiness as the assistant quickly gasped at seeing him and clumsily fell backward before closing the door behind him. 

"I've fucking missed you" she smiled.