The Memories (Camren)

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(Camila's POV)

  I wake up with the birds chirping and looked to see Shay wasn't next to me like last night. I got up and found grass pieces in my hair. I went inside and found all the girls including Shay cooking breakfast. "Morning sleepyhead," Ally smiles. I could smell the fresh bacon and my stomach started rumbling. "Someone's hungry," Dinah says. I nodded and went upstairs to take a shower.

  I grabbed all my belongings for what I need for a shower and turned it on to the right temperature. I picked a song to sing in the shower and what came to mind was Invisible by 5SOS. I got in the shower and did my business.

  After my shower, I got out and went downstairs to eat my breakfast. I could still smell the fresh bacon that I have been dying for since I entered the house when I slept outside. I sat down on one of the bar stools and my girlfriend handed me my plate. I mumbled a thanks and she smiles. Who am I when I don't know myself? I shook my thoughts away and tried to enjoy my meal. "So what's the plan today, ladies?" Normani asked. "How about we visit Lauren?" Ally asked. I gulped hard and realized I dropped my plate. Shit. "Mila!" My girlfriend goes to help clean up, but I stopped her. "I got it, Shay." I bend down to pick up the pieces. I put all the remaining pieces in the trash and sat down next to Normani.

  "Who's Lauren?" Shay asked and that literally killed me inside. It's hard hearing her name already. "A close friend of ours that got beaten up almost to death she's in a coma right now. They said she's lucky she made it, but they think it will take a year for her to get out of the coma. We haven't visited for like three weeks because we don't want to go without Mila here," Dinah replies. "And how many times did I tell you guys to go without me!" I yelled at them. "Camila she needs you more than us." "Sorry, but I'm not going." Shay grabs my hand and pulls me into my room.

  "What?!" I asked. "You need to go see your friend." "You can't tell me what to do! And first of all she's not my friend." "Why didn't you tell me about this?" "Because you don't have to know every damn thing, Shay." "We are supposed to trust each other that's how a relationship works and to help you not suffer." "You still don't need to know everything yet." "Okay, Mila. What's so special about Lauren if she's not your friend?! Huh?! Is she your ex?! WHAT'S GOING ON?!" "YOU DON'T GET TO TALK TO HER LIKE THAT!!" "I DON'T GET IT! YOU ALWAYS SHUT ME OUT AND I'M HERE BREAKING MY WALLS FOR YOU!" "FINE, SHAY! LAUREN IS MY EVERYTHING AND...I LOVE HER!" I voiced cracked and I look away immediately from her. "We are done, Camila." She slams my door and I hear the front door slam like a bitch.

   I sat down in my chair and opened my laptop looking at any signs that Lauren was getting better. I groaned in frustration finding nothing. "Trust me I always look if any of Lauren's family post anything about her," Dinah voice fills the room. "I'm guessing you heard the conversation." "Yeah, I did. I know you don't like talking about it, but we are suffering just as much as you do, Camila. Maybe seeing her will help her wake up faster. You never know." "Trust me it's better not to see her." "Just think about it, Karla," I give her a dirty look and she smirks probably at her accomplishment of saying the name I hate.

   She leaves the room and leaned back into my chair. I decided to start my homework and hope they will forget about visiting the hospital. "Camila." I heard a voice knocking softly on my door. "Come in," I heard the door open and continued to look like I was busy doing my math homework. "You know that's not due until Thursday," Ally says. "I know. I just want to finish it," I replied softly not wanting to make eye contact. She sighs and says, "Come on, Mila. Can you at least try for us?" I stopped writing and I could feel my hand starting to shake. I squeezed my hand to stop the shaking and said, "You guys just go." I know it sounds harsh, but I seriously need to do this.

  She closes the door and leaves. I looked at the door and found myself going outside into the balcony of my room. I lean on the bar fence and looked into the deep view of the forestry. I let the wind blow my hair that's already a mess and decided to turn on the local radio. Here's The Vamps with Missing you single. Wait? Bradley's band? Lucky. I listened to the song and it was really good. I could relate to this song right now. I turned up the volume and listened to it carefully.