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slowly but surely, our group got bigger. there were 10 of us. six girls and four boys. they did that so there's an even amount of girls to share a tent together as well as guys. when we all were there the counselors; andrew and eve, started walking us towards the campsite.

"so that's the dinning hall where we'll be eating our meals. we have snacks and stuff if you need any thing through out the day." adam says. they're currently giving us a tour of the campsite on our way to where we'll be staying. but i wasn't paying attention to them to be honest. they said something about going up a hill almost everyday and walking here there and everywhere. half way through the tour i got bored of listening. i just followed them to where ever we're going. pin pointing special marks so i know my way around if needed.

in the corner of my eye i saw the guy from earlier staring at me. i think his name was matt? he was tall and a bit muscular. his hair was a light shade of brown and had a chestnut blonde like tint to it. his eyes were a peircing blue and made it so you wouldn't stop looking at him. i've always had a thing for blue eyes. they're just so beautiful and viberant. it's hard to ever look away from them.

after awhile he was still staring at me. probably just taking in my ugliness. i didn't even try to dress and impress today. i just wore a workout tank top and some fabletic shorts. my hair was in a messy ponytail and i was wearing my black and rose gold nike sneakers. i had no makeup on and my skin was a pale white color with a tiny tan.

"stop staring." i whispered while looking over at him. he turned away like he was embarrassed. i don't understand why but it was getting weird for me. i rolled my eyes and scrunched my nose in disgust while turning my head back forward.

"sorry, you're just really pretty." he says to me. i look over at him to see him blushing a little. i turned away keeping up the pace so i don't get separated with the group. i don't know my way around this camp and i doubt this guys does either. i'm not looking to get lost on the first day.

"well stop. it's making me uncomfortable." i say with an attitude. he looked hurt after i said that. i don't know why.

"i was just trying to give you a complement. damn." he said putting his hands up in defense.

"well i don't want one." i snapped at him. at this point i feel bad for being a bitch to him. but i can't open up to him. i'm not getting hurt by another guy.

"why are you so rude all of a sudden? i didn't even do anything." he says. boys don't care about you or your feelings. they're there just here to hurt you. they say they love you then ditch you to go to the next one. they think it's a game. don't give into the game or you'll get hurt. i keep telling myself that and keep the thought inside my mind.

"doesn't matter. just stop talking to me." i say not making eye contact. he stopped talking to me and stared at the ground the rest of the way there. i quickened my pace to get away from him. he didn't chase after me. thankfully.

"alright and we're here!" eve say. the camp site wasn't too special. some tents, two picnic tables and a fir pit. there was also a hut thing which i'm guessing is the bathroom. there's that one bathroom that smells so bad but is always conveniently right there when you need it. nobody uses it because it's disgusting and gross. but it's the thought that counts i guess.

"ok so the first activity we're going to do is trust falls so find a partner and..." they kept talking but i zoned them out. soon we had to find a partner. so i looked around seeing everyone had a partner besides matt. of course.

"guess we're partners." he says scratching the back of his neck. i nodded and turned around.

"just get it done with. spotter ready." i say following what they told me to say.

"ready."

"falling."

"fall away." he says. with that i leaned back ready to hit the ground. but i didn't and i was back up on my feet.

"see that wasn't that bad." he says smiling as i turn around. i glared at him.

"whatever." i mumbled walking away from him. that day we did more trust exercises and getting to know each other. the most they got out of me was short answers. i just didn't feel like talking to anyone.

night time struck and we all were at the camp fire roasting s'mores. everyone was having a conversation with one another besides me. i've closed my self off from everyone especially the boys. i was watching the flame of the fire when someone sat next to me.

"hey i'm haley. i thought since we are roomies we should get to know each other a bit more." she says. i gave her a small smile in return.

"sure. i'm rose. but there's not really much to my life. i'm just an average girl." lies.

"oh ok cool." she says. soon enough we were having a full conversation with one another next to the fire. as we were talking i could feel someone staring at me and i knew who it was. matt. he has tried talking to me through out the day but has soon given up. i didn't pay any attention to his stares because it wasn't worth it. soon enough it was time for us all to go to bed. we all headed to our tents and laid down in bed going to sleep until the morning.

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