Bullied Love

Chapter 4

Back To Embarrassment

As I walked Samuel around the school, we had a little conversation...

"So you're... Noel?" Samuel asked me.

"Yeah," I said. I really didn't feel like talking. But of course, he said something again.

"Why is everyone so mean to you?" He asked kindly. I stared at him. Couldn't he have realized that I get bullied?! "I mean like, why do they bully you?" Oh.

"They are the only ones that can answer that. I walked into the boys bathroom when I was in preschool. But why they still make fun of that is a good question," I answered, hoping that that would stop the conversation. I was really in a bad mood. We where silent. YES!!! "I got bullied before," My gosh!! Just shut up!!! Is what my mind was saying. But my mouth was saying this: "Those suckers should really leave us alone,"

"Next time we laugh at them when they realize we're as awesome as they think they are," he joked. I didn't want to laugh, since it was NOT funny to me.. I mean I am the complete opposite of awesome. I heard myself laugh at his joke. I'm just too dumb to control myself, and maybe I do need self-confidence classes. But they're kinda BORING!!!

We arrived at the nurse.

"Here is the nurse, that can only put a bandage on a cut, which I think you won't need, so I showed you this for nothing," I said. He smiled, and that made me do the same.

So we just talked, and talked, and talked, and didn't even realize, that we just past the school gate. We were just so concentrated on talking. After a while, we looked around and laughed. I knew where we were, since I live close by. It was hilarious, and I guess he won't be Vanessa's 5th. There is a huge difference.

So yeah... I was surprised that I actually have a crush on someone! I had that before, but it was like in... Well... Um... I don't know, like first grade? All I know is that I had a crush on Nick. Nick is now Vanessa's boyfriend. Of course he is. Well I stopped loving him when I realized that he will never want to hang out with a bullied girl. But I guess I get the butterflies on a way nicer, and hotter guy, with a way more awesome name. SAMUEL!!!

Another thing that I couldn't believe was that I actually get embarrassed again. So I had my hat on, and we came back from the little... Journey, I guess? But as you could probably tell, Vanessa pulled off my hat, and Samuel saw my green hair... It was so embarrassing!!! I had this really weird feeling in my stomach, and my head felt like it was about to explode. It felt TERRIBLE!!! I just wanted to leave. I wanted to explain, even though I knew Samuel wasn't mad... I men like, why would he? Or would he..? I felt dumb, and I needed to rest. I guess that's what embarrassment feels like. ;-( I wanted to cry, but at the same time, didn't. I know that I'm overreacting, but it was a long time since I ever had a crush, and a long time since I was embarrassed. So I kinda forgot how it feels like. SO I OVERREACT!!! Sorry.

I liked Samuel from now on...