Why should I keep a promise when no one else can?
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Long days and long nights. It's all coming back and I don't know why. My though process over the last year has been odd. I've changed. Some good ways some bad.
People around me have changed, some good, some bad. Some left.. and some arrived just when I needed them. I didn't think I'd survive school. But I did. Sort of.
Giving up is something I'm really good at, as soon as something goes wrong I either give up Trying completely or do something stupid. I promised I'd never do it again. But seeing as those people promised things, then broke the promise, I guess it means I can do the same.
I'm not sure that any particular people actually know the real me, I pretend I'm fine. Most of the time I am, I think.. but no one actually cares, it's all selfishness at the end of the day.
Subconsciously thinking people actually care about each other, they don't. The majority of people suck, I can name names, but because they suck, I'd end up getting run down for it and told to shut up.
People only want power or a social status now. Which changes everything and nothing.
I want to change myself to better other people. Because I know that I'll start losing the ones I care about most. And though it feels like I already have, I'm still holding on to the last thread of hope that I still have.
Nothing lives forever, nothing lasts forever. I'm just waiting for particular people, things and situations to end. I know when they do I'll be a mess. I'm not sure I'll get through it fully. So I'm just waiting and hoping it's not anytime soon, though it feels like it's already happened..
Selfish.
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General FictionAn overview of the battles I face once my Mother was diagnosed with cancer and the battle which my family and I have to face, before and after the events. The things that helped me get through it, and the things that ruined me. TW all throughout. &l...
