The One That Got Away

MOTTE: Decisions

Each day is starting to feel redundant and cliche, if not for all the usual things, but at least how it makes Jiyong feel.

Each day for the last few years, his routine would be...

Wake up (tobacco session)
Take a bath
Go to the studio
Write and produce music
Bring hell to all incompetent singers
Tobacco sessions during work
Drink with friends
Sleep

He had never felt the thrill of creating new songs...

He always wondered what went wrong.
Did he get used to it?
Is he ungrateful?

He never understood what happened.

Until today....
Finally after a long wait, he is home.

"Ji...". Sandara Park called out to him. "Are you listening to me?"

Jiyong just smiled for getting caught staring.
He doesn't mind.
He finally got to where he wanted.

"You've been reminding me that since day 1 baby girl." Jiyong stated as he rub the side of her head. "It always makes the song better."

"Your song is a piece of your soul Ji." Sandara states seriously. "That's what makes it so good."

"Then you are making my songs better." Jiyong looked at her directly. "Cause you being with me makes me my best self."

Jiyong couldn't help not to want to reach out and kiss her and the same time feel the pain of seeing her uncomfortable.

"Jiyong...."

"I know baby." Jiyong admitted before pulling away, giving her an arms wide. "Too fast? Too honest?"

"Too..." Sandara started to explain. "Too..."

"Too much?" Jiyong tried to help. "Too soon..."

"Jiyong... I'm..." Sandara looked at him and sadly smiled. "Too inlove... but too scared."

Jiyong smiled sadly as he reached out to her to give her hand a squeeze. "We have to work on that then baby girl."

Sandara could only blink as Jiyong went back to his console. She thought he'll try to kiss her and she knows she'll enjoy it but push him away.

"Don't get me wrong Ms Park," Jiyong called out without looking back at her. "There's nothing I want on this moment but to kiss you senseless but I am trying to give you time and wait for you to initiate things. I'll wait until the day you won't feel guilty and upset everytime you realized you still love kissing me. That you still love all of me... the good and the bad."

Knowing the love of his life should be blushing as red as gochujang makes him warm and giddy inside.

Life will never get boring with Sandara Park.

Now, only if he could make her feel secured with him.

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"Is Jiyong talking to you?" Youngbae asked Seungri the moment he sat down at Seungri's 50 thousand dollars sofa. "Where do you got this posh-ness?"

"Got that in a local store in Spain, had it shipped here in Korea." Seungri said as he put a bottle of beer in his 20 thousand dollar center table. "My then girlfriend said it will look on good in my house's interior."