A SwanQueen Story

Unappreciated

Regina's POV

It's been a week. No one has seen me in a week. Not even Henry. I don't even know if I can call him my son anymore. I'm sure he would rather he Emma's son that mine. Because I'm such a terrible mother.

"Regina?"

"Miss Swan what are you doing in my house?" I try to sound like I normally do but my voice lacks the bite it did before. Now I just sound broken.

"You okay? You don't sound okay. Can I come in?"

"No! Stay away! Go away!"

"I'm not leaving."

"Miss Swan you have work I'm sure you have a lot better things to do than annoy me."

"I actually don't. I have coffee. Please. I'm coming in whether you like it or not." The door opens and I keep my face hidden. I know I probably look pale and ugly and broken and sad and so terrible right now.

"Your house has never looked worse Regina."

"Get out Miss Swan."

"Why?"

"Ask your girlfriend! Now leave." My voice mumble by the pillow that's hiding my face. I shouldn't have said that.

"What did Lily say. Please look at me."

"No! Go away. I don't want you here. Why do you continue to bother me even when I tell you to leave? Can you really not take no for an answer Miss Swan?"

"I can't take no for an answer and I'm here because I want to be. I know you haven't moved since the day Henry left the hospital."

"Please Miss Swan. I'm asking you nicely to just go away." I feel the pillow being pulled from my face and I groan sitting up to look at her. She gasps in shock.

"Regina you look terrible. Here." I take the coffee and drink it.

"Have you eaten?"

"No." I whisper my voice breaking.

"Since when?"

"Five days."

"Regina! Oh my god! I'm going to granny's and I'm getting you a burger that you will eat I don't care if I have to shove it down your throat. Some onion rings and you will eat. Then when I come back you will shower and then I will hold you."

"Why do you care? All I've done is be rude to you since you drive that ugly disgrace of a car into my town."

"My car is amazing. And I care Regina and I want to be your friend. Some people are harder to get through. You have tall built around you and I just want you to let me in. Just a crack. So I can comfort you because I know Henry's only gotten worse. And I know you're hurting so just let me be there. Holding it in won't do anyone any good." I look down.

"Please."

"I can't. Just go Miss Swan it's a ware of your time."

"I'm coming back. I don't care what you say. I will be back. And I'm not leaving." She walks out and I set my coffee on the nightstand. I pull my legs to my chest and start crying. I miss my son. I miss him so much.

Flashback. 6 year old baby Henry.

"Baby it's time to get up for school."

"Okay mommy." He sits up in his little bed and stretches. I smile and watch him as he rubs his eyes and then puts his arms up for me.

"Up mommy."

"Okay baby." I pick him up and smile. So cute. I take him into the bathroom and then I set him on the counter. I take off his pj shirt. Next I put on a white wife beater. A black polo shirt and then I slip off his pants and he steps out of them standing up on the sink. I pull off his night time pull up.

"I not wet mommy."

"Good boy. No more peeing at night?"

"No." I giggle and kiss his cheek. He holds my face and kisses my lips. I smile.

"Thank you Henry." I slip on his spider man underwear and them blue jeans. I button them and then he sits back down.

"Mommy will you always be here?"

"What does that mean Henry?" I ask slipping on his socks and then I put on his shoes and start tying them.

"Dylan mommy at school left."

"Henry I'll never leave you okay?"

"Promise?"

"Of course my little prince. I'm never going anywhere. I'll always be mommy."

"Good. Who else will make food for me?" He asks and I giggle.

"Is that all I'm good for?"

"No you give the best hug and kisses mommy! And snuggles!"

"Oh that's true my little snuggle monster." I tickle him and he giggles loudly which bring such a big smile to my face. He's so pure and innocent. How cute!

"Already ready to eat?"

"Yeah lets go mommy!" I set him on the ground and start walking but he pulls on my black dress pants.

"You okay honey?"

"Yeah." He holds my hand and then pulls me away. I smile.

"Mommy I love you."

"Oh Henry I love you more." He puckers his lips and I give him kisses. This little boy loves affection. On the weekends he wants hugs and kisses all day. It's so adorable.

If only he still loved me and needed me. I said I would be mommy forever and now I'm not even a thought in his head.

"Hey?" I look up see Emma. I turn my head to the side wiping my eyes and I rest my head on my knees. Another tear falls and I sniffle wiping it away. Get it together Regina. You don't cry in front of people ever.

"Want to talk about it?"

"I hate you so much."

"Want to tell me why?" I look at her and she sits down on the bed.

"I've been Henry's mother for ten years of his life. I changed every diaper. I soothed every cry. Dealt with every tantrum. I go up at 2 am even when I had work to sit in his room and make sure monster didn't get him from his nightmares. I kiss ever pain. I wiped every tear. I did everting! And then one day he choose that you deserve love more that I do. Despite everything I've done for him. And no matter how much he hates me I still love him because he's my son. And that's what mothers do. You've been a mom all of five minutes and I no longer exist in his life. What the hell is that?!" The tear spill from my eyes without consent and I wipe them away angrily.

"I get it. I know I'll never full get it. You did all the hard work. The up all night. Stinky diapers. Whining. I came when he could do everything for himself. I have it so easy. But I didn't ask for this Regina. You can't blame me."

"I don't. I blame myself because maybe if I just never told him he could hate me later in life. I feel like a mother with no son. I wish he would've just talked to me instead of running away like I'm some terrible mother and maybe I am."

"No you're not! I see the love you have for Henry. I don't know why he's doing this and I don't get it because if I had a mom like you growing up I would've never ran away. He has it so lucky because you love him and even through he yells and he's rude you still love him. You're trying and thats more than any other mother I've ever had could say."

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