A SwanQueen Story

Worry

Emma's POV

"You frickin' jinxed it!" Regina yells.

"Regina I'm sorry."

"Emma. I'm scared."

"Henry upstairs please."

"No I'm apart of this too." He says.

"We need a moment alone." He sighs.

"Henry just a second." He nods and kisses Regina's head before going up. She smacks my arm.

"Emma I can't. She even said there's a 65 perfect chance I could loose them or they are born early and they die. Emma I can't."

"Baby you can do this."

"Even if only one dies every time I look at the other two I'll remember their sibling who died."

"Don't think like that."

"64.5 percent chance Miss Swan."

"Regina don't start that. Don't even think that could possibly happen."

"But it could. We can't sit here and act like this is not happening. And I'm already four weeks in. She said I'm very small to carry three children Emma. One could come out with half an arm!" She yells and I sigh. Don't get angry. She's scared. I would be too. I mean I am. But she's the one giving birth so it's more scary for her. I don't want to loose any of my babies. But we won't. We will not loose a child. It won't happen.

"Regina shut up."

"Don't tell me to shut up."

"No you need to stop you're going to have all three. They will be healthy and strong and they will live. Stop worrying. My love you're not doing yourself any good."

"I'm scared. I'm so scared Emma that because I'm abnormally small for 32 that I'll kill our babies."

"Please stop."

"Emma." She sobs and I hug her.

"Okay, okay baby. Let's go lay down okay?" She nods against my chest. We get to the room and we lay down. Both in pajamas pants and tank tops.

"Mom's?" Regina calmed down some. She's still worrying. But I can't help that.

"Yeah honey?" Regina asks sitting up. My arm falls from around her shoulder. She wipes her face.

"Is everything okay?"

"I don't want to lie to you Henry but I also don't want to worry you."

"Mom I'm gonna worry. I'm your son. She said you could die giving birth. You think I wasn't terrified? You're my mom. But I know you won't. You're strong. So strong mom. If anyone could give birth to three kids it you mom. You're pretty cool when you want to me. And you're going to be a fantastic mom to these babies just like you are to me."

"Thank you Henry."

"And you'll be fine. Emma won't let anything happen to you."

"Of course not."

"Does this mean Ma is gonna be here more?" I open my arm for him and he smiles. Both my favorite people in the world lay their heads on my chest. My arm around Henry back and my other arm around Regina's waist.

"I'll be here more as she gets more into her pregnancy but for now. We still like our one day out of the week alone. To sleep all day or clean or whatever your mom does when I'm not here."

"Work. You're always distracting me."

"I know."

"So triplets....." Regina says.

"Don't start."

"I just wanna cry." She says truthfully.

"I should leave." Henry says.

"No it's okay Henry. I'm gonna be a mess throughout this pregnancy and if something goes wrong, god forbid but we won't keep a secret. You will know everything."

"I love you mom."

"I love you too, my little prince."

"I think you're gonna have all boys." Henry says and I laugh.

"No maybe two boys and a girl."

"Oh that's sounds great. But mom is out numbered."

"Yeah too many penises in one house." I say laughing.

"You're crazy Ma."

"But you love me anyway asshole."

"Hey!" Regina warns and we both laugh.

"Children." She says.

"I can't wait."

"Me too kid. I'm gonna be a mom or dad, same thing but again."

"What do you think the peanuts will call you?"

"Dada? Or mama even. But eventually Ma like you when they get older."

"Will you call them kid?"

"Do you want me to?" I ask.

"I don't mind. It's kind of a loving name. I am your kid so." I laugh.

"You're quiet baby."

"I'm just scared. I can't help but think about the bad. I've always been that way since I was young cause my life has been traumatic. I never told anyone but I was so close to my grandparents and they were killed in car crash. Abuela was like my mom in a way. She loved me when my mother didn't. And I love papa. He was quiet but he loved seeing me and playing outside since I wasn't allowed to. My dad wasn't around much. My mother didn't allow him. But I knew he loved me the little I got to see him. My mother forbid him from seeing me. And when he did come because I begged to see him. My mother
somehow knew and would hurt me because I wanted love. And then my grandparents died and I had no one. Daddy couldn't see me anymore and all I had was a terrible mother who didn't give a crap about me. Since then I never believed I could be happy. And I was with Henry. And then stuff happened. And I am with Emma but now I can only go back to what I know. And it's worry and fear. Being alone or loosing them. Being a disappointment. I just, it's hard to move on from that when it's all I know." I kiss her head.

"Thank you for sharing that."

"You're the only two people who know."

"I wouldn't have loved to meet them." Henry says.

"Abuela and papa would have loved you two so much. They would be happy I'm happy. Daddy would love both of you. He always told me to choose love. I think he knew somehow I was gonna end up with a woman. He continued to tell me love is genderless as my mother screamed another into my ear."

"But you love your mother. I mean from what I've seen growing up and seeing her occasionally." Henry says.

"Yeah. She's my mother. Even if she was a mean one. And she hated me, I loved her and I don't know why. I hate her for making me so miserable but she's my mom. And for some stupid reason I love her."

"You're kind of amazing mom."

"Thanks honey."

"Our family is going to get bigger. I don't care what the doctors say or what you say Regina. You're going to have 3 healthy babies. They might say no and you might say no too. But we will take three babies home in eight months."

"I can't believe I'm already a month pregnant."

"You'll be showing soon."

"I need new clothes." Henry and I laugh. Regina joins in. She sits up and kisses me softly and then kisses Henry head.

"Thank you. For listening to me. For loving me. For not giving up. I'm going to really need you two throughout this pregnancy."

"We'll be here." Henry says and I nod.

"I love you guys." We hug and I hold them close.

"We love you too."