Forgotten || n.h

Chapter Nine

I finish packing everything. We informed Sam and Mason about this. Tomorrow. I'm going home tomorrow. We're going home tomorrow.

I never knew it would be this soon, despite 2 years, it felt just like 2 weeks. The memories were still raw and new, it felt like it was yesterday. I sat on my bed, back leaned against the head board reading a book, while Niall laid down on his stomach topless next to me, flipping through channels, i stare at him for a while and that was when i just realized what i saw. A scar on the middle of his back. It was healing but it was brown and still visible, different from his skin color. My fingers brush along it, and he freezes, realizing what i was doing.

I stare at it without speaking, as i encircle it with my fingers, the mark i gave him for being so stupid. I knew he told me to stop blaming myself but he can't take that away from me, in my heart i was to blame, no on could take that away from me. He sits up, and takes away the image of his back away from me, now he faces me, sitting infront of me.

"Stop it." He whispers, as he places his warm hand on my cheek, the other holding my waist.

I don't respond to him, as i watch the memories in my head turn vivid. It looked surreal and my heart beats fast. How could i be so stupid? If i didn't turn myself to Josh, if i didn't listen to him maybe he'd never had that scar, maybe I'd never had to lose, or waste 2 years of not being with him.

Why Skylar?! Why were you so stupid?!

I was crying now, as he embraces me. Kissing my forehead. Stop crying. Stop it. Stop.

"That scar is a symbol, showing that I'd do anything for you. Anything." He whispers to me.

"It was never your fault Skylar. It was no ones fault. Josh. He's the one to blame. Please stop blaming yourself. Please." He begs me.

"You can't take that away from me." I whisper.

(A/N: haha here i am again warning you! XD yeah if you skipped to this chapter just know she hasn't lost her virginity there yet, they just am had a tiny intimidate moment there. But here it is. Where IT finally happens. Yes. Age restriction 16+)

He stares at me for a moment. And before i could stop him not like i would, he kisses me. He kisses me like he never kissed me before, like he was scared of losing me. He kissed me like it was the last. He pulls my shirt of my head, and he hold my hips. He starts to suck on my neck, letting a moan escape my lips. My breathing heavy as i tug onto his hair. He pulls off his jeans leaving himself in only boxers, then he starts to unzip mine, i take in a sharp breath knowing i was inches away from being completely naked. His hand travels down the insides of my thighs then he whispers in my ear before sucking on it "I love you.", he says this multiple times as he unclasp my bra. A shiver runs down my spine as he cups my breast in his hand, he whispers "I love you." Again and again into my ear as he pulls off my underwear, my nails dig onto his back, as his fingers travel down the middle in between my thighs. I take in a sharp breath as he rubs on it making different feelings ignite in me, i had my arms still wrapped around him, scared he'd let me go. He pulls away from me and in that second i feel that hollow empty feeling, he grabs his wallet from his jeans and pulls out a small rectangular sachet. I knew what it was. We were doing it. This was it. He wears it, and wraps his arms around me again, and he whispers for the 30th time in my ears "I love you." I suck a sharp breath when he spreads in my legs, my nails digging in his skin, i panic. He reassures me by smiling and kissing me and whispering "I Love you." One more time.

"I'll be gentle." He whispers, and i nod peering into his blue eyes, i shut my eyes, as he places his lips on my neck, i moan and i could feel the sharp pain as he thrusts forward in me. A scream leaves my lips, never worrying what Sam would think, i ignored the thoughts, as he gently and slowly comes in and out of me. He just stares into my eyes, as if checking if i was okay. He places a kiss on my cheek, my forehead then my lips. He continues to thrust, my eyes shut, his grip secure on my waist, a moan escapes my lips so loud, my nails digging hard against his back, my back arches away from the bed, and he stiffens. Then we both drop on the bed, his arms still wrapped around me.

"I love you." He smiles at me.

"I love you too." I tell him, he smirks, pulling me closer against him.

"Say it again." He whispers in my ear and i grin.

"I love you too." I kiss his lips and he smiles throughout it.