My Only Sick Boy Soldier

Untitled Part 7

It had been two weeks since singing with Brendon... and kissing Emerson. Nothing else happened. We still took naps together on the couch and fell asleep there almost every night. We still held hands sometimes while walking down the street. Normal best friend things. Shows were my favorite things, and meeting the fans who immediately excepted me into the band with so much love and support. I felt so loved. But I still cried almost every single day, because it was still happening. Every morning on my instagram there would be a new picture posted to my story. None of the guys knew about it though because I would delete it right when I woke up. I didn't want them getting upset. It was my problem. Not theirs. 

"Y/n why the fuck didn't you tell us about this?" Remington comes into the bathroom while I'm doing my makeup.

"About what?" I put my powder brush down and turn to look at him. He puts his phone in my face. 

"About this. That someone has been posting on your story again. Why didn't you tell us.?"

"Because I knew that this would happen, and I can't deal with it. So like every other bad thing in my life I have decided to block it out, because no matter what I do nothing is ever going to get better!" I start to cry. "That no matter what I do or say. No matter who I am, nobody cares enough to help. Nobody cares at all." My statement started out loud but got quieter and quieter as I went on. 

"Don't ever think that, we all love you. You're part of the most loving family in the world. You have me and Em and Seb. You have Brendon and Jack, and most of all, you have the fans. They love you so much. You don't have to block things out because we are going to help you get through them. You have the best friends on earth to support you. Remember that we're all always here to talk." He pulls my into a tight hug.

"Thank you so much Remmy." I say burying my head in his chest. "Will you watch Harry Potter with me?"

"Of course, love. I'll go grab the snacks." So he grabbed 3 jars of Nutella and some spoons, as well as some ice cream, then we sat in his bunk and has a Harry Potter marathon. After a while I got tired so I kind of cuddled with him and fell asleep. I really love these boys. They are the best friends/family that I could ask for. I woke up to Emerson and Sebastian getting back on the bus after an interview. I rubbed my eyes and sat up. There was a very sleepy Remington sitting next to me trying to make it through Half Blood Prince.

"Remmy, you should go to sleep, it's getting late." I say yawning and getting out of the bunk.

"But I wanna finish the movie!" He pulls me back into the bunk. "We have to finish this and both Deathly Hallows, then we can sleep." 

"But I'm tired." I say curling up next to him.

"What are you two doing?" Emerson asked, opening the curtain to the bunk.

"Emmy!" I scream jumping out of the bunk. Him catching me. "Tell him to stop watching Harry Potter and go to sleep." I say clinging to Emerson. 

"That would be a good idea, Rem. We have a show tomorrow so you should get some rest. I know that you live off energy drinks, but some actual sleep might be helpful."

"Fine!" He said shutting his laptop and rolling over to face the wall.

"Can we watch T.V.?" 

"Aren't you the one telling Rem to go to bed?" He said putting on a new shirt. 

"Well, yeah, but I missed you. Because you were gone all day and I was forced to hang out with that idiot." I laughed pointing at Remington's bunk.

"Oh come on, you know you love me." Remington came up and hugged me from behind, I might have screamed a little. "Calm down, it's just me" He whispered into my ear. 

"I knew it was you, it just startled me." I said turning to him so that he was holding my waist and I was looking up into his eyes. "You know that I love you Remmy I was just trying to get him to stay up and watch T.V. with me." I said leaning my head on his chest.

"I know, but Em is tired." He pointed at Emerson already passed out in his bunk.

"But now that I'm up I'm not tired anymore." I whisper yelled into his shirt. 

"Let's just lay down and fall asleep watching T.V. in my bunk then. Okay?" 

"Okay" We just stayed like that for a while, I liked Remington's hugs, he was a lot taller than me and I felt really safe.

"I want a hug too!" Seb said coming out of the bathroom. 

"Sebby!" I screamed running out of Remington's grip and giving him a hug. "I missed you!" He was like the older brother that I never had. Notice that they are all older than me by at least a month. The other two just usually act like five year olds. "How was the interview?" 

"It was kind of more of, "So who's dating the girl?" and "Why did you add a new member?" It's too bad that you weren't there, it would have made answering those questions so much easier." We all laughed and then Seb went to bed so me and Rem went back to his bunk and fell asleep watching the Office. But not before having a very awkward conversation. 

"So... you and Emerson?" He asked walking over to the bunk with two bottles of water. 

"Um... kind of, not really. There was one thing that happened, but nothing has happened sense then. Plus if anything did really happen it would make things weird, because if we date and ever break up I would probably end up leaving the band or something because it would be too awkward."

"Nope, I will never let you leave. From now on you are my human!" He screamed and hugged me tightly, we then fell asleep like that with his arms around me. Honestly, Remington is one of the best friends that I could ever ask for. He understands me, but he also knows not to push to get answers that I don't want to talk about. Sebastian is the older brother that I never had. He's always checking in on me to make sure I'm okay and that I'm doing the right thing. Then there is Emerson. The one and only Emerson Barrett. H e is my favorite person on this earth, if anything bad happened between us I don't know what I would do. They are my three favorite people on this earth, I fell asleep thinking of all the memories that I've made with them so far.