Blunt

Jimin

I was sitting in my usual place at the back of the practice room, when a cute boy approached me. He asked me out for coffee.
He is pretty good dancer. I have seen him dance here a lot of times. I was impressed with his moves the very first day. But i dont have the kind of courage to approach him like he does. Maybe thats why, after the first day i came here and saw him, i just kept on returning.
I am really bad person. But he doesnt need to know that. He has seen me coming here every day, maybe thats why he asked me out.
I nonchalantly nodded when he asked me.
I could see that he was surprised by my answer. His eyes got so big, and rounded. Haha..it was adorable.
I like his voice as well. I heard him singing one day in the corridor. It is like wind chimes on a rainy day. So calming, so beautiful.
He got so flustered when he saw me. I just pretended that i hadnt really heard him.
He kept looking at me since then. I could feel his eyes boring into me, everyday.
It made my spine tingle with anticipation.
So i kept returning everyday without fail.
But everyday i came here, i would remember Tae. How happy he used to be. How lively.
And i immediately loose my will to come here. But i keep coming back. Because atleast coming here, reminds me of how beautiful my baby was.
I know i am a selfish man, trying to move on with this new boy. But i need closure.
It has been an year. And my Tae is gone.
It is difficult to breathe most days.
But then the day passes, and it becomes easier again.
I am scared by how lesser and lesser the pressure on my heart is getting as time passes. I dont want to forget Tae! His face, the beauty in his eyes. The love in his heart. I dont want to let go so soon.
Who else will remember him like I do.
The only 3 people who actually attended his funeral were me, Joonie and some strange guy hiding behind a tree.
I thought it was suspicious, but we were both grieving so we didnt mind it.
But that doesnt matter. What matters right now, is a coffee with this new boy.
I dont even know his name. But i do know that he is younger than me.
He might be a student still.
We go to a nearby cafe, my mood gloomy from remembering Tae.
The boy is nervous, if his fidgeting is anything to go by.
We grab a corner, and he moves to the counter to order. "What would you like?" He asks me.
I just shrug, not in the mood to drink anything. I came here, just to spend a little more time with him.
He looks confused, his eyebrows are drawn together in concentration as ye decides what to order.
I like how this boy dedicates himself to the simplest of tasks.
I have a genuine smile on my face when i see he brought me a hot chocolate, while for himself some sort of shake.
He looks at me, and sits down with a smile of his own.

(Meanwhile, in Jeongguk's mind:
Oh my holy gods, he is smiling. He is so beautiful. I wanna hug him right now. How did I ever get lucky enough to see this angel smiling at me?)

He is so cute and i can clearly see on his face, that he loved it when i smiled at him.
I plan to do it more often.
I plan to meet with him more often, if he would like it.