Out of Desperation Came Forever After

Chapter 20

Ethan's POV:

When I opened my eyes, I was confused for a split second, looking straight up at....coats. Sweaters. Jackets. Hoodies. Shelves on the side with hats, scarves, gloves, an umbrella in the corner...

But it didn't take long for the images to come flooding back into my mind from last night.

Yes. THIS was why I woke up in the closet.

I turned my head to look at Jenna. She was already staring back at me. Laying on her stomach, head leaning on her one hand, head upright, just watching me. She had a beautiful smile on her face and a twinkle in her eyes. I'd never seen that twinkle before. Maybe she was happy again. Maybe she'd always had that, but I'd only ever seen her in danger, so it was hidden. It was a beautiful twinkle, anyway.

I smiled shyly back at her. I was still remembering last night, so I felt a little funny. But it was a wonderful funny. Like butterflies in my stomach funny. Like, I can't believe we did that, funny. Like, hashtag HEAVEN, funny.

When I thought of that last one, I laughed outloud.

"What!?" she asked in confusion.

"Sorry...I was just....remembering last night, and a funny thought came to my mind", I told her.

"Ok....?" she waited to hear.

"Hashtag HEAVEN", I said flat out.

She laughed and slapped my arm.

"Seriously though....yesterday...was THE best day in my entire life. I swear to God. And last night...was THE best love making I've ever had, or probably will EVER have in my entire life, I swear to God", I admitted.

"It was pretty fucking epic, wasn't it?" she asked.

"There are no words for it, Jenna", I said.

And there weren't words for it. I couldn't even describe it. I couldn't believe no one had made up a word to describe what we had last night. Even if they did have a word for it, there still wouldn't be a word for it, I figured.

Jenna laughed, "Dude...we slept in a closet!"

I laughed too, "And had SEX in a closet!"

We both laughed and cuddled closer. She laid her head on my chest and I turned to her and laid my arm across her back.

As if on cue, at the same time, we both said a quiet "I love you" to eachother. Then we laughed again, at our coincidence.

She began to lightly trace her fingers over my skin up and down my chest, getting further and further down each time, until she skimmed them over a "puddle" that was near my belly button.

She stopped and circled it, and one part of the circle included the tip of "it", which had long been standing at attention...hence the small puddle.

I couldn't stand it anymore. Thinking of last night. Seeing her today. Loving her. Being able to finally make love to her. I rolled up and over her body half way, pushing her gently down to lie flat on her back. She gasped and stared me in the eyes, and I could see the lust in them. She wanted me, just as badly as I wanted her.

I rolled the rest of the way on top of her, and took both of her wrists gently, and put them above her head, on top of her long dark hair that was splayed out around her head.

I held her under me as I sunk into her slowly, my eyes never leaving hers.

We were practically nose to nose. I watched her face as relief came over her after I was comfortably inside. She closed her eyes slowly, and opened them again seconds later, with even more lust gleaming inside them than before. I wondered how my own eyes looked to her. I imagined them glowing red with love and desire.

We moved slowly together on the floor, in the closet still. God, I loved this closet. Who would've thunk it? A closet was now my most favoritest place on Earth. Life is funny that way. Life is fucking BRILLIANT, actually. James Blunt had NOTHING on this!

As we moved, we kept the same pace the entire time. I didn't want to move faster. Slow was perfect. Slow allowed me to feel her. Inside and out. Get to know her body. The body of the woman I loved so much. It was amazing to me how much I could love someone. I could delete every song I'd ever written, because they were novice, compared to what I felt now. That was kid stuff, compared to her and I. If we ever ended, I knew it would put my mind overboard and drive me insane forever.

At that thought, I felt my eyes well up. They welled up so fast with all the emotions I was feeling, that I didn't have any time to stop them and control the wetness before it got too close to the edge.

Shit! No!

It was too late. A single tear dropped out of my eye, and straight down onto Jenna's cheek, below her eye. An involuntary breathy sob came out of my chest after it.

I couldn't control the emotions I was having at this moment. I felt crazy. Insane. But it all felt wonderful.

She pulled her wrists out of my hands, and put her hands on my face, and wiped the other eye with her thumb, which was just about to spill over like the first one.

She smiled a lusty, emotional smile, and whispered "I know", and lifted her lips up to mine.

Seconds later, lips still together, we both began to breathe jagged breaths. Her body shook against mine and her lips opened and her mouth turned to the side of my mouth and pressed against my face.

Meanwhile, my own body started to shake and spasm on top of her, and I pressed my face even harder against hers. My groans went directly into her ear, so I tried to keep them quiet, but I wasn't successful most of the time.

"Jenna....Jenna.....ohhh, Jenna....I love you. My God, I love you" kept coming out of my mouth in whispered pants.

When our bodies finally stopped convulsing, we went limp. I layed my head on the ground next to hers, with my nose in her neck, trying to recover normal breathing.

She wrapped her arms tightly around my back and panted "I love you. I love you too, Ethan. More than I can tell you."

And then I felt a tear drop from the side of her cheek to my nose below. It made me smile into her neck.

We layed like that for a long time again. Laying like that for so long was almost as good as the actual act before it.

Finally, after I think we dozed off a little while, she tapped my side and I came back to reality.

"I have to pee", she laughed.

"Me too actually. And we sat up in the doorway of the closet and looked around and at eachother. How funny it must have looked all night, with our legs sticking out of the closet.

We both shook our heads at eachother, and I stood up and grabbed her hand to help her up.

She looked at me funny then. With an evil look on her face. I knew exactly what she was thinking.

I got an evil look too, and we both suddenly took off running.

Somehow, she beat me to the bathroom door. But I wasn't gonna give up.

I grabbed her by her waist and lifted her up a little bit, and placed her behind me. I was now the victor in the bathroom doorway. Mua haha ha ha.

We were cracking up as we fought eachother to get in the door first.

She managed to slip past my body by ducking under me, and she ran in, and slammed the door in my face, and gave a victory "HA!!!"

"You're the WORST!!!!", I responded out loud in a sulky voice.

I backed away from the door, and stood looking around her apartment, and out the windows, where the beautiful morning yellowish light was shining through. My heart could not possibly swell any bigger with the love I felt.

My mind could not possibly feel any more hopeful at the promise that this new day held for us.

I stood there, smiling from ear to ear, scratching my messed up hair, like a big naked dork, in the middle of her apartment, wondering what this wonderful life had in store for us.

***(There's one more small chapter...a few people didn't know there was more after this.)