*Discontinued* Masquerade~Haitus (Needs Rewritting)

14. Roman

After Virgil's 'visit' to his bestie up by the music stand. He finally dragged me away to the concession stand. He was laughing away telling me these stories about him and his 'group'. He had a whole group of besties. BFF's and shit...  I just stood there in silence with my arms crossed as I watched everyone around us. My eyes kept drifting back to the stage where Virgil BFF was current skimming through his music looking for the right song. Who even is Kai? Is he a character? A side? If a side then who? He can't be light side seeing as how I don't know him. I'm getting a headache. Maybe I should go...

"Roe?" Virgil's voice was soft and shakey as I looked over to see him giving me this worried look. "Is everything ok?"

"I don't know. Why don't you go ask your posse?" His eyes darkened as I grumbled under my breath. My head hurt and my chest was tight. Maybe I was getting sick? I just don't know anymore. 

"My what? Roe, I don't understand..." I spun around and grabbed a water bottle in frustration as I groaned.  "Did I do something?"

"I don't know, did you?" Virgil didn't do anything as I went off on him. He just stood there listening to it all. "I mean it seems like something you would do. You are anxiety after all. Making people feel like shit must be a past time!" His eyes slightly widened as I glared at him. "Why don't you go hang out with all your other friends and just leave me the fuck alone." 

One second passed and his expression went neutral. Two seconds passed and It hit what I just said. Three seconds and Virgil was turning away to leave. I grabbed his arm to stop him as the tears started to well up. Don't leave me. Don't go. Don't... I feel like shit yes but the fact he was actually going to leave physically hurt me. He looked back at me with narrowed eyes.

"Roe, let me go." I shook my head and he frowned at the tears that started to fall. "Roe..."

"D-Don't go. I'm sorry. I-I didn't mean it. Please don't go." His eyes narrowed as I slowly let go of him and wiped away the tears that were spilling from my eyes. "I didn't mean it. J-Just... If you leave, it's just going to make me feel worse."

"What's wrong?" I shrugged as he pulled me over to the wall where we both sat down. "Roe, talk to me."

"I don't know ok? I really don't. I just... I've never felt like this before." I sighed as I hugged my knees to my chest. "I mean, I am anxious. I know that. But... sad. Angry for whatever reason. Lonely... really really really lonely. Betrayed?" Virgil leaned back against the wall as I pushed myself further into my knees. "It makes no sense. I felt fine before. I was happy. Nervous but happy. It wasn't until... until..." My eyes darted over to the redhead on the stage and I narrowed my eyes. "Forget it. It's probably pointless anyway."

"Emotions aren't pointless. Pain has meaning." I could see his eyes soften as he looked off towards the man I had been glaring at. "All pain has meaning. You just have to figure it out."

"I feel... like you should find someone better than me. Seriously go hang out with your other friends. I'm... I'm worth the trouble." His eyes went wide as I jumped up to leave. He didn't even move. Not when I stood up. Not when I pushed past the doors. Not when I left. I left. I left the party. I left Virgil. I left the constant fear he would realize I was nothing and just leave. I got about halfway back to my room when I felt someone grab my hand causing me to freeze in place.

"I don't have other friends, Roe." I looked back to see Virgil gripping my hand like it was a lifeline. He was scared. I could see the way his body shook. He took off his mask and slammed into me wrapping his arms around me as if too scared to let go. I was simply frozen. "I don't want any other friends. So don't push me away."

"Virgil I know that's a lie. You were literally talking to one of them." She shook his head holding me tighter and I frowned. "You said you had this whole group. Kai, Deceit and one other person. You have friends, V. Just go..."

"Kai's not my friend. He's my brother." I stopped short as Virgil started to shake more. "Not... Not by blood sure but... They're all family, Roe. There all I had before this... b-before you. I don't know what happened or when exactly but we ended up on the floor. Virgil was not letting go and I couldn't hold back the tears that had been building. "I'm not going to let you just walk away."

"I don't..." I started to push him away and he tensed up, looking up at me. "I don't want to. I just thought... I guess, I just figured you wouldn't want to be with me if your friends were there." After all, I've done, I wouldn't want to be with me either. I'd completely understand. "I don't know." Virgil frowned as he slowly got up. He reached out to me and helped me up as I took his hand in mine. He never let me go. He held my hand firmly as he led me to his bedroom. I watched as he tossed his mask over his shoulder onto his dresser before leading me over to his bed. I shot him this confused and anxious look as he pulled me in. He just laughed lightly as we both laid there. he held me to his chest as I hugged him tightly. "V-Virg-gil?"

"Shh... Roe. It's ok." I buried myself into him as I cried. It was definitely not princely but I couldn't help it. "I'm not going to leave you." I couldn't help but smile as he whispered like it was just us in the world. "No one is ever going to pull me away."

"Promise." I could hear his heartbeat as he held me tightly.

"I promise." But... How can you promise that when you don't even know who I am? I just... I know the moment this mask comes off, you're going to pull away. I'll be left alone and... I don't know what feels worse. Being alone or knowing you left me.