*Discontinued* Masquerade~Haitus (Needs Rewritting)

18. Roman

"ANXIETY, WAIT!" It was too late. I watched as Virgil sunk down and I felt my whole body grow cold. What is wrong with me?! Why can't I just... I cried out in frustration as I jumped up to grab some coffee. Thomas watched from the table the whole time. "Stupid... Stupid... Can't ever just shut can you?"

"Princey?" I grumbled to myself as I sat back down rubbing my eyes as I yawned. I didn't get any sleep last night. Not since leaving Virgil's room. Every time I tried I would have a nightmare. So I just ended up laying there lost in thought... those weren't good either. I was exhausted and breaking down the seams. "Ok Roman, something is wrong."

"Nope, nothing. All is well. Solo soy un completo imbécil." Thomas narrowed his eyes as I took a sip of my coffee feeling the burning feeling I've been feeling all night tear through me. "Ni siquiera puedo ser llamado príncipe. Soy un villano Esto es lo que soy. Soy el villano, no él."

"Roman, you know I don't speak Spanish. Please translate." I laughed a little staring at my cup.

"I said I'm fine, Thomas. Don't worry. Odio mucho esto." Thomas groaned again as I smiled sadly. "Never mind me...y cuanto estoy roto... We have a video to plan for."

"Is that why you're up so early?" I nodded knowing full well it was a lie and Thomas sighed going back to eating. "Well, we have to wait for the others to get up and you should apologize to Anxiety."

"No." Thomas glared at me only for worry to fill his eyes as I started to shake. "I can't. I won't. I'll just... Terminaré lastimándolo nuevamente." I gripped the cup so tight my knuckles turned white as flashes from last nights nightmares filled my head. "Lo siento. No quiero. No quiero. No te puedo perder. Lo siento. Lo siento mucho. Por favor ... no quise hacerlo. Lo siento..."

"ROMAN!" I jumped snapping out of my head as Thomas ran over pulling me into a hug. I now realized I had started to cry. "I may not speak Spanish but I do know what 'I'm sorry' is. Talk to me, please." I pushed him away wiping the tears away and trying to put that familiar princely mask on. Even if I don't feel like one right now. 

"I don't know what you're talking about Thomas. Now hurry up and finish. So we can get the others and work on that video!" I jumped up leaving a stunned Thomas at the table as I collapsed on to the couch. "I am so tired..."

"Maybe you should take a nap then, Princey." I could see Thomas standing in the doorway and I frowned. I only groaned as I laid there watching him slowly go back into the kitchen to finish up or whatever. I couldn't take a nap. I was tired but... I couldn't possibly... sleep... now... I...

"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!" Not again. I stood there staring at the black hearing his voice screaming at me. "I HATE YOU!"

"V-Virgil?" I spun around trying to find him but all I saw was black. "Vi?"

"It's your fault. All of this is your fault. You couldn't let down you mask for one minute." I fell to my knees feeling everything break down around me. "You did this." I tensed hearing his voice right in front of me. I spotted black shoes and I looked up in horror to see Virgil... fading. His eyes shining with such pain as parts of him faded into transparency. His whole body wavered slightly coming in and out of focus. 

"Vi... Don't..."

"Don't what? Don't fade. Your the one that told me to, remember?" I shook my head furiously as I tried to reach out to him. He just stepped back causing me to fall forward on to my hands.

"Th-that wasn't me. I-I wasn't... I didn't... I'm sorry." He scoffed as he spun around and I felt my whole body start to shake from the tears that tore through me. "Don't leave me. Virgil, please. I'm sorry... I didn't mean it. D-Don't leave... Por favor. P-Por favor... Lo siento. L-Lo s-siento... Lo..."

"ShUt Up, PrInCeY!" I flinched back hearing the rage in his voice. "Don't you dare apologize now. Don't you dare when all of this could have been prevented. You made the choice... YOU ABANDONED ME! Don't EVER play the victim, VILLAIN!"

"Vi? Please don't..." I tried to reach out again lost in the desperation as Virgil just glared down at me. "Please..."

"It's too late, Roman. Villains don't get forgiveness. Or did you forget that?" I watched in broken terror as he faded away and I felt everything snap. Pain ripped through me as I curled up into myself clutching at my chest. Everything hurt. Everything... My chest felt like it was on fire. My tears burned my skin. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't... I-I c-couldn't...

"Lo siento. L-Lo siento. Por favor regrese. Por favor ... duele ... duele. Por favor, Virgil, lo siento." My body shook violently as it was wracked with sobs and unending pain. "P-Por favor... Lo... Lo siento... lo..."

"Roman?!" I cried curled up into myself lost in the pain mumbling apologies only heard my the ever devouring black that surrounded me. "Roman, wake up." It hurt. It hurt so much. But... It hurt more to know he just left. He's gone. Virgil's gone because of me. He faded... He... I'm sorry. "ROMAN!" I jumped up clutching my chest tightly still feeling the pain in my chest. I looked around only to find Thomas staring at me overcome with intense fear as I wiped my tears away. I must have fallen asleep... which mean that was just another nightmare. I winced at the pain in my chest and I frowned. "Roman, that is it. You NEED to talk to me."

"Thomas, I..."

"What up, Kiddo's!" Thomas groaned in annoyance at yet another interruption only to frown seeing the others staring at me in confusion. "Roman, what's wrong?"

"N-Nothing. A-Absolutely n-nothing." Obviously, no one believed it. I was just glad Virgil wasn't here to see me like this. I was a mess. "D-Don't we have a video to p-plan?"