unrequited sayings

space

sometimes,
i just think that it would be better to die..
rather than i need to live on by something that isn't sure.
waiting for something that was impossible to happen,
is just like you're sitting on a rock and wait for it to melt.
it's too tiresome.
when we are too tired and people noticed it,
they would only say
"hey,take a rest. just relax yourself."

dude.
it's not as freakin' easy as you say.
you only could see what visible.
you don't even know how much pain that i've been holding all those times.

sometimes i just need a little space to be alone.
people might say that i was just pretending to get your attention .
seriously?
if that was true,
i'll do anything and selfishly get all your attention.

actually,
i just need a space to be alone with you.
nothing more.
i wont expect anything.
just looking at you made my day.
even though you hurt me so bad,
i don't even care.

look at you.
laughing so hard with others,
while i'm sitting in a corner,
wishing you would care.
hoping that i was the one who made you laugh like that.

this moment,
i don't even know what i'm doing.
don't even know what situation i'm in.
i can't find anything.
i'm lost.
lost in the ocean of my love for you.

are you satisfied?
you have reach your goal.
you made me have feelings for you,
then you throw me away.
pretending to give me a space to adapt myself,
but instead you are pushing me away from you.

thanks a lot.
i've learn too much from you.
and thanks to you,
i became insane.