My Lannan. My Lazarbeam. My Love. (Completed)

Ilsa (Emma)

I wake up with a massive headache. I look around to see I'm on the couch. A nurse is hovering over me. Everyone is surrounding me, except I don't see Elliot, Ilsa, or Lannan. Where's Ilsa? She should be here. What happened? What the hell is going on? Everyone notices that I've opened my eyes and the nurse starts asking me questions.

"What happened?" The nurse asks.

"Um, well I screamed and hit my head because Ilsa.. oh my god Ilsa!" Suddenly everything clicks.

I jump up and feel slightly dizzy. I start to run towards the stairs, but a hand grabs my wrist and yanks me back. I hear Lufu yell, "Don't let her see it'll make it worse!"

I fall but thankfully someone was there to catch me. I look up to see cray holding me right above the ground. He scoops me up like a baby and I rest my head against his chest as he carries me to the couch. As he leans down to set me down I cling to him, so instead he sits on the floor next to me. He stays there until they say I can go down to my room.

He helps me down the stairs, and right before I'm about to go into my room, I say, "Wait." My voice surprises me, it sounds so weak and.. hopeless.

"I want to see her."

"Darlin they already took 'er. You could see 'er room though."

"Ok."

He walks me to her room and opens the door. It's been stripped of everything. They took out the carpet, the lights that hung around her room, the clothes in her closet, everything. The smell of cleaner hits me as I step into the room. I sink to my knees and cry. And cry. And cry. Cray finally scoops me up and tucks me into my bed.

"Thanks Cray." He brings me a glass of water, and deja vu hits me hard. I suddenly miss Lannan really bad.

"Right before he leaves I say, "Cray? Where's Lannan?" He looks at me with sad eyes and says,

"He went with Elliot to his parent's house. He'll be back in an hour or so."

"Ok thanks Cray. Night."

***
One week later
***

"Hey guys, I just need to say sorry for not uploading lately. I won't be for a while. I've got some stuff goin on right now. Cheers fellas."

He turns the camera off and turns to me. His eyes are red and his cheeks are tear stained. He gets up and wraps his arms around me, breaking down yet again. He's done this every day for the past week.

"It's my fucking fault. Why the hell didn't I see it Em? Why?"

"It's not your fault Lannan." I say, slowly walking him to his bed. He sits down and I sit on his lap and tuck my head into his chest. He wraps his arms around me protectively and we sit for a while. He's been more protective of me lately, which is understandable, and also really sweet.

In any other circumstances, you'd think that me and Lannan were in here fucking all day, but me and him really took the loss hard. We haven't done anything all week. I think Lannan took this almost as hard as Elliot. Lannan feels responsible, and Ilsa was my best friend.

The funeral was two days ago. That was the only time I've seen Elliot this entire week.

As I'm thinking, Marcus pops his head in and says, "Time for the Click vid."

Lannan stands up and trudges out to the couch, where everyone except Elliot is sitting.

I turn the camera on and Cray says, "Hey guys we just need to say that none of us related with Click are going to be uploading or streaming anytime soon. Some stuff happened, and we're not gonna say yet, but it's gonna be a while. Bye."

Once I turn off the camera put it away, and me and Lannan go back to his room.

I read over the note again.

I'm sorry to do this, but I don't feel loved. I love so many people, but they don't return it.

The last straw for me was Lannan Eacott.

Lannan is the most amazing person, and anyone that knows how to look can see that. He's funny, cute, caring, and kind.

But then he asked out Emma.

And that was it for me.

I love you Lannan, and I'm sorry I have to do this.

Emma, you are an amazing friend, and you cared for me even though no one else did. So I'm sorry. I hope you understand. I hope you and Lannan work out. I really do. Good bye.

"I love you Lannan." Keeps playing over and over in my head. I turn to Lannan and kiss him for the first time since the movie. I kiss him hard, with everything I have. I put his hands around me and put my hands on his face, pulling his closer. Our lips are smashing together in perfect chaos. I let out a small moan when his hands start to drift down.

He shifts me so I'm straddling him, and puts his hands on my ass, pulling us together. I feel him getting hard under me. I put my hands around to the back of his head and tug at his hair, earning a moan from him. Suddenly he flips me over and breaks the kiss. He takes a step away from the bed and says, "Not here." He then grabs his keys from his dresser and slides them into his pocket.

"Wait." I say "Go get the car started, and I'll be there in 5 minutes."

He goes up the stairs and I rush into my room. I quickly change into my best lacy bra and panties, check my hair, and rush out the door.

I hop in the passenger seat of his car and in a rushed voice say, "Go."

He takes off, ignoring the speed limit. In 5 minutes we get to his house. Tannar is still at the Click house, so we have Lannan's whole house to ourselves...

TO BE CONTINUED
(I'm already at 1000 words so I'm continuing this chapter in the next part) (heheheh)