My Lannan. My Lazarbeam. My Love. (Completed)

Love?

Emma's POV

"LANNAN WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU??? DID YOU EVER LOVE ME OR WAS THAT A LIE TOO?!" I scream. Ilsa starts crying from the other room.

"Emma I-"

"NO! Don't you DARE come of with some shitty ass excuse! Answer the fucking question! Did you ever love me?" I growl the last part, and I feel hot tears running down my cheeks. I think of how stupid I've been. He's been crazy about sex the past 10 months. Is that all I was to him?!

"Yes." He cuts off my train of thought. "Yes Emma I did and still do I love you so fucking much. Elliot sat there and made me horny and what I did was wrong and I'm sorry! But.. I can't change what happened. I can't. It's done." He's crying now too. Good maybe he feels some pain too.

"And it's the biggest regret I have. I'm about to fucking lose you and it's my fault." His hands run through his hair and he paces around his living room. He falls to his knees and puts his face in his hands.

I walk over to him and he looks at me with hope in his eyes. It takes all I have not to run to him and hug him. To breathe in his warm smell. To say I forgive him. But I don't. Not this time.

I take his hand and slip off my wedding ring, putting it on his hand. "Goodbye Lannan."

"No!" He cries, grabbing my wrist.

I don't react or pull away, just turn to him and say, "Let. Go." He releases my hand and falls to the floor in defeat.

I walk into Ilsa's room and pick her up, grabbing the baby bag and walking back out towards the door.

"No.." Lannan cries and stands up on shaky legs. He doesn't make it to me before he falls again. My eyes accidentally drift to his lips and my stomach does flips.

I shake my head and walk out the door, getting an Uber to the Click house. My stuff can wait for now. I burst in the door, crying my eyes out and trying not to drop Ilsa. I texted Tannar on the way here so she should be down in a second.

I see her running down the stairs and Nathan follows behind her. He immediately takes Ilsa and I nod to him gratefully before throwing myself into Tannars arms. She guides me back up to her room with Nathan and tells him to wait outside.

"I just wanna say Emma, I don't know what the fuck got into him. If I had to guess, he's trying to run from his responsibility. In high school, he dated this one girl. Maya I think. Anyways, she wanted to have a more serious relationship, so he broke up with her."

"But he fucking.. he fucked Elliot! How can I move past that? Tannar what the fuck will I do? I don't have a job, I mean, I don't know how I'm gonna live!"

Her hand rubs my back and I nestle myself against her. She wraps her arms around me. "I don't think you can get over that. I wouldn't, I know that. But you might be different. I mean, I argue with Nathan every day. Little things, but sometimes it adds up. But you two? Literally perfect. You just need to find balance. I think if I were you I would find away to move past it. Of course, not without him getting seriously chewed out and punished and stuff, but still."

"Thank you Tannar. God I'm so tired." I said, almost falling asleep in her arms.

"Go to sleep then. I'll take care of Ilsa."

She lays me down on her bad and I close my eyes. "Thank you so much Tannar."

***

I wake up to yelling. I rub the sleep from my eyes and hear Ilsa crying. My instincts kick in and I run out of the room. I spot Nathan holding Ilsa and take her from him. She's crying but I think she's just hungry.

Then I see the source of the yelling. Lannan. "Please! Let me see her!" He's standing at the top of the stairs but Tannar is blocking his way.

"You caused her so much fucking pain now get the fuck out of your whore's house." She spits at him, and he takes a step back.

He suddenly whips his head towards me and locks eyes with me. My breath catches, and I force myself to turn back and go into the room. Nathan comes in with me and hugs me.

My knees go weak from the pain in my chest and Nathan picks me up and sits me on his bed. I hear the front door slam and Tannar comes running in. She wraps her arms around me as well. "I'm so sorry Emma."

I nod. "Thank you so much guys. I love you guys." Ilsa catches my attention by pulling my hair and I sigh. "He's hungry."

Tannar nods at Nathan to leave and he runs out, locking the door for us. I smile a little. He's such a great guy.

Tannar helps me feed her and I'm left sore afterward. How can this little toothless creature hurt so bad?!

Tannar gets up and unlocks the door so he can come back in. They lay on either side of me and each hud me as I fall asleep again, Ilsa wrapped in my arms.

A/N

Yep!

So technically there's one part left, because the last one is just kinda a note from me.

And your gonna hate it!

Soooo with that being said, I'm gonna make y'all wait till tomorrow to publish it!

😂😂😂 I am such a dickhead 😂😂😂

Anyways, CHEERS FELLAS!