As far as I know, I don't own tumblr.
It was a simple click of a button. A simple click that changed my life. I fell in love with someone online. While it kills me that I can't see him, but I still love him.
My own apartment, my own computer, and tons of free time. It got quite lonely at times. I was in college, yet that still left my weekends and days off free. My siblings would come over every so often, but it wasn't enough. I felt the need to have someone. Someone who would make me smile when they texted me. Someone who would say nice things to me even if it I would never accept them. I craved companionship. At the moment, I was closeted, but not ashamed of it. It just didn't seem like something you bring up at a family dinner. For most of my life, I was confused and scared. After high school I actually started to accept myself and this this is who I am, and who I'm going to be for the rest of my life. When I got my own apartment, it got better. All that was left was to tell my parents. The thing was that they wouldn't believe me that I'm gay, so I would like to come out with someone. Someone to make them believe that I'm gay and that I have a boyfriend. The problem is that I can't find any available guys. They're all taken, or our personalities don't fit. It's hard.
My brother had a girlfriend, and her friend started dating my sister. His name was Simon and he was what you would call a geek. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Actually, I have to thank him for showing me this, but while I was out with my siblings, Clary, and Simon, we noticed he was online a lot. Isabelle told him to get off his phone, and asking him what he was doing. This is also when I found out Isabelle had a thing for Simon. When he said that he was online talking to his friend from Asia we didn't believe him. As far as I knew, he didn't travel much. He explained that he joined the Tumblr community, and met a friend on there. He also explained how he knew they weren't a fake person. It was something I ignored at the moment, thinking it wasn't important.
Later on that night I laid on my couch, watching some movie that wasn't even interesting. That's when I decided to make my own blog. I was bored, and it just seemed like something I could do in my free time. I didn't expect it to become anything.
My first blog was made and it was just something simple. I just rebloged pictures I liked, or something about a book I like. It was a decent blog with a decent amount of followers. Nothing special. That was, until I got an ask. Someone with the URL MagnustheMagnificent. I checked out their blog first before I replied. It was a mixture between a fashion and makeup blog. Their icon was-I'm not going to lie-was a very attractive man. Photograph from the internet or personal picture, I wasn't sure. All I knew from his bio was that his name was Magnus, he was twenty two, he liked fashion and makeup, and he had a cat named Chairman Meow. Interesting name for a cat. He seemed like an okay guy, but we didn't really have much in common so far. Either way, I checked his ask. He said: Hello, love! I like your blog and would like it if you replied and said hi! He seemed nice enough, but I still wasn't sure if I should reply. Remembering what Simon said, I replied. Hello. I'm Alec. And that's how it started.
Days, weeks, and months passed and I was falling for Magnus Bane. Even though we didn't seem like two people who would get along, he was still a great person to talk to. It got even better when I got to talk to him more. There were almost milestones when you have an internet friend. Your first conversation, first picture exchange, first time you video chat, and we hadn't gotten past that yet. Next would probably be meeting him, but that wouldn't work because he lives all the way in Spain. He said he moved there once he could get put of Indonesia and leave his demons there with him.
The night he asked me out was just another normal night. We were video chatting. His hair was down, eyes were tired, and his makeup was smudged. I told him to go to bed, but he refused. Time zones are a pain. "So how was your day?" he asked.
"Do you really want to know?" He nodded. "Well, it was boring. I went to school, talked to you, did some homework, talked to you some more, and here we are."
"I might be able to go to school there. I'm not sure, though. I just applied to a fashion school there and I'm hoping I get in."
"Magnus that's great!" My heart did a leap at the though of Magnus being here in New York.
"You look so cute." His complements were not rare, but the way he said it was different. Good different, though. "I wish I was there to kiss you and ask you out properly." Kiss me and ask me out properly? That was something he didn't always say.
"Are you trying to ask me out?" He nodded again with a smile on his face. My face turned a bright red and he laughed at my blush. "Ha, y-yes. I'll go out with you, Magnus."
The worse part of being together with Magnus was the looks you get when you say you have a boyfriend you haven't met yet. Even if they don't say anything, you just know what they're think. Many people think it's not a real relationship, but it is. The way he makes me blush is real. The way he cares about me. Just him. He is my boyfriend, and I love him. Even if I haven't told him I love him yet. Like the night I came out to my parents, he was there for me.
"Magnus? Can you hear me." It was another video chat with him.
"I can hear you, angel eyes."
"I told parents." My voice was a little shaky, even though I had nothing to be afraid about.
"How did it go? Did they react well?"
"Surprisingly, yes, in a way. We were having dinner with them and my siblings, and I told them bluntly. I just said ' I'm gay' because there was no other way to put it. My siblings already knew, and my mom was pretty okay with it. My dad, he didn't really understand, but my sister and Mom talked to him about it. Right now I wouldn't say he's okay with it, but I'd like to say he's just going with it because he can't really do anything about it. The only thing I didn't tell them about was you because that's too much information for one night."
"That's good that it turned out well. I'm happy for you. We're one step closer to being able to see each other in real life."
~o~
I stood waiting at the airport. Magnus got into the school here and was able to get enough money to come here. He's going to move in with me too. We finally got everything organized and we'll be able to be together. It's going to be perfect.
The plane landed and started to unload. The people came inside one by one, but so far none of them were Magnus. After about ten minutes, Magnus walked in. He had his hair spiked with a pair of-probably designer-sunglasses on his head, an sparkly black shirt, and blue skinny jeans. As soon as he spotted me he smiled. I walked up to him, a little awestruck. "Magnus," I breathed. He grinned even wider and wrapped his arms around me for a hug. He was a few inches taller than me. He did tell me he was 6'4", so I expected him to be taller. My heart rate sped up and an involuntary smile stretched across my lips.
"Alec. I love you." Not a second after he said those words he brought me into a kiss. His lips were soft, how I though they would be, and they tasted of cherry chapstick. There wasn't any fireworks of sparks-well there was Magnus' glitter- because that's cliche. There was what felt like magic when he kissed me.
"I love you too, Magnus. Come. We need to get home before traffic gets worse."
Original title: INTERNET LOVE YAY
